i noe find a job is hard... but not THAT hard!!! oh man.. now the thing i hav most is time and least is money... jobs jobs jobs!! where are u???

now tat i hav my PINK IC, wow, did i write it wrongly? PINK IC, ya correct.. so ya, the PINK IC, realised that the photo really sux.. how come i was so ugly when i'm in sec 3? sigh... now den grow handsome a bit late... dunno when can change photo... touchwood!! lost my IC once already.... dun wan to lose it another time.. hav to pay more...

anyway... the 'high' lanshop beside katong shopping centre is really 'high'... the rates are normal, coms are new, they sell drinks, and there's a big screen where they'll play soccer matches.. the ambience is really great... the music they play is superb, goes really well when u're playing games... are perhaps i'm losing too badly in my dota game tat i hav to listen to the music intead... keep dying...

so collecting IC is juz like tat... not really a thrilling experience...

now tat i've grown mature by a little bit more, begin to worry abt money matters... how will i survive in uni? oh man... better get a job soon...

anyone needs social escort? onli females aged 18-22, look like son ye-jin, need apply

i noe find a job is hard... but not THAT hard!!! oh man.. now the thing i hav most is time and least is money... jobs jobs jobs!! where are u???

now tat i hav my PINK IC, wow, did i write it wrongly? PINK IC, ya correct.. so ya, the PICK IC, realised that the photo really sux.. how come i was so ugly when i'm in sec 3? sigh... now den grow handsome a bit late... dunno when can change photo... touchwood!! lost my IC once already.... dun wan to lose it another time.. hav to pay more...

anyway... the 'high' lanshop beside katong shopping centre is really 'high'... the rates are normal, coms are new, they sell drinks, and there's a big screen where they'll play soccer matches.. the ambience is really great... the music they play is superb, goes really well when u're playing games... are perhaps i'm losing too badly in my dota game tat i hav to listen to the music intead... keep dying...

so collecting IC is juz like tat... not really a thrilling experience...

now tat i've grown mature by a little bit more, begin to worry abt money matters... how will i survive in uni? oh man... better get a job soon...

anyone needs social escort? onli females aged 18-22, look like son ye-jin, need apply

phew... came back from sec 3 rapport buildiing facilitating... wa... long time since i get in touch wif sch life... a classroom of 40 really brings back old memories... the job wasnt meant to be tiring, juz simple games and activities for the students...

but then, probably, i'm not the most enthusiastic faciitator around... hahaa... some of the kids hav a higher energy level than i hav... wif good fortune, i got a really good class and a really good co-facilitator... so, the experience is pretty good...

being in close touch wif a mixed sch for the first time, realised how much more mature the gals are compared to the guys... the class hav a big bunch of really active, cheery and spontateous gals, really cooperative and sensible... the guys are more concerned of how they look, and most end up being too punky or childish...

interesting scene :

co-facilitator : 'shouting at the kids for the first time when they are real messy'
after they quiet down, a student : y u so fiece? muz use soft approach mah...
co-facilitator : sometimes soft approach dun work, gotta use the hard way
student : den use a softer approach...

anyway, nice to earn money and hav fun wif the kids even though its a bit tiring... haven woke up earlier than 8 for a long long time... but the sch's facility is a bit run-down... onli found 3 water coolers throughout the entire sch where i've been to... its bad enf to hav toilets for different genders at alternating floors, but worse still, the toilet got no paper!!!

luckily, brought my own tissue...

it's onli a temp holding area, tink the students and staff can bear wif it for the moment...

after tat, went to mac near the area where the facilitators had a long chat... discovered a big difference between me and them - they all hav directions ; they noe wat they are doing, or wat they are gg into, wat they are interested in, or wat that will giv them wat they desire... which was when i realised, i had no part in this conversation... i've got no plans... got no direction... when ppl ask me wat i'm gg to study, and i answer them, i hardly do it wif tat level of excitement and enthusiasm as they did... i did it like i had no stake in my future... or rather, i tink i lack ambition... in every areas situations so far in life, i juz wan an easy way out... such high energy ppl whom i've met will surely come out and succeed in life, whereas i'll juz be looking out of the window and tinking, wat's there for me?

when being asked, wat are ur interests... i can hardly say convincingly the course tat i'm gg to study... i felt like i nv liked it in the first place.. my grades are becos i'm good at studying, not becos i'm good at the subjects... if doing well's wat tat makes me interested in them, i may well lose interest when i dun do well in U... i tink its juz like leading.... i've taken up various leadership roles throughtout these years... if u ask me, i tink i can lead, (i mean, i'm not the lousiest leader u've seen rite..).. but i dun like leading at all... i dun like to be such facilitators, or holding leadership appt, where everyone's juz waiting for u to say, to do... but why do i still lead? becos i noe wat it takes to be a good leader... and i will try to hav wat it takes for me to lead, when i'm leading... which masks the fact tat i'm actually a poor leader...

so, in the conversation where there's more than me who had nv met anyone b4, i'm juz sitting there, listening but not saying a word... tat is me...

YawNz... really got nothing better to do, so came here to write a bit of nonsense...

everyone's working... alvin's got a job as relief teacher... good for him man, tink i probably wun get any offer... hmmm... looks set to join the working gang next week... wonder how it'll be like.... gotta do some shopping too... very little working attire i've got..

anyway the swelling caused by the dental op is gone, but my face still look a bit weird.. maybe too long nv see my face in shape le, so now not used to it... finally got it over and done wif, i'm not gg to go thru it again anymore.. hahaa... the feeling really sux, to be in the op concious... this time round the surgeon is an experienced female doc... and the tooth's not really compacted, so it's alot easier on me and her.. but still, it seems like she's using tremendous force on my jaw, at one point of time i felt my jaw's coming off... ouch... and heard her saying 'no strength already'... hahaa... guess my tooth really up one ok....

wat's different from the first op is tat, she gav me anesthesia again after the op's over, so tat i dun feel the pain... she say it onli wears off after 4 hours... tat was abt 12 in the noon...

wat happens was a bit of a scare for me... i cant feel the right side of my chin, lips and tongue for the rest of the day... the feeling wasnt tat horrible, but biting on ur tongue would seem like biting on any other food u had in ur month.. but of course, the fear tat it may be permanent dwelled on me... that fear kept me touching my chin for the rest of the day... and relief i got when late at night the nerves came alive again.. phew... the 4hr anesthesia lasted the whole day... or maybe the nerves were affected...

so, dunno tat's lucky or unlucky... at least i nv feel the pain the whole day... unlike the first op where i had to play need for speed to distract myself away from the pain...

anyway, for those who cant take blood, dun scroll down...tat aint rock or stone... it's my teeth!!

The right side

The left side

hmmm... finished a jog wif kkk and alvin.. guess we're the onli ones not working now.. but this life, although its a bit on the boring side, doing absolutely nothing has got its pleasure as well.. i mean, the feeling of waking up late and sleeping 3 hours in the afternoon, its real nice... knowing i wun get to live tat kind of life when i get a job or when i'm studying, its better to enjoy it now... hahaa...

recently has to sport-ing and bridge-ing quite alot... something tat dun require money, excellent to keep both your body and brains working, b4 they get too rusty... my cousin and 3 of her frens were here from batam a few days ago, but guess its a rather disappointing visit... they didnt get to play at the escape theme park, which unfortunately opens onli in weekends and public and sch holidays... neither did they manage to visit the night safari, which they greatly anticipate, due to the rain.. which was when i found out tat an entry ticket to night safari costs u 20 bucks... and u gotta pay more for train rides or other stuff... dun really understand y so ex... and somemore if rain, everything will be cancelled.. i understand this part but shldnt the management do something abt it so tat in rainy days visitors still get to enjoy after paying so much...

anyway, done watching summer scent... son ye-jin is really beautiful...

waiting for 'alone in love', of course by son ye-jin...

oh welcome to my first blog of the year... hahaa.. juz looking back at my bloggin experience, time really flies.. started bloggin at around in 2005, and here we are in 2007... alvin was sending me the mv of jojo's too little too late, and in the evening i heard this song in the 987 top 100 countdown... number 30-something... quite a nice song it is... and ya, many many nice songs in the countdown too...

so for me, how was the year 2006? hmmm... guess it's a year where i grow up and learn alot... particular in army... i guess wat i went thru wasnt tat bad for a clerk... went thru ex concorde, atec and oso involved in ndp, among others..for me, it wasnt a good experience to go thru, but its great to tink back abt it... how shit always nv fail to happen... how we got past all the difficulties... how bad we got screwed... and how handsomely we were rewarded when something gets done.. ermm, the last point didnt happen.. ya... hahaa...

guess i changed pretty much at this period... and i've came to understand that it's important for a planner to be a pessimist... always expect the worst... as my camp fren joshua quotes murphy's law, "anything that can go wrong will go wrong."

wat i look forward next to is to ord... three weeks from now... den get a job, earn money, buy everything tat i can buy wif the money, earn some more, den go uni...

wish everyone to hav a great year ahead!!! ermm, no.. many many great years ahead!!!