can't rest?

why why why??? everytime i tot i'm finally gg to enjoy some peaceful slacking time, i onli end up disappointed... there's juz so much work to be done... perhaps i'm still in the 'men' mindset, tat i onli strive to do less work and onli succeed if i do none... sigh, being a commander tat i am, it's even harder to dodge arrows and shield swords.... the fact tat i'm clearing 1 or 2 offs a week doesn't mask the reality of tons of work waiting to be done so tat more work can come in... it's juz tat, wif offs, u have less time available to do the same amount of work, so u end up being more busy struggling to meet deadlines and stuff... oh did i say meet deadlines? now it's becoming a matter of whether i even finish them in the first place, not to mention finishing them on time...

alrite, tat's plenty of complains and whinning... sigh.... no matter wat i say, my fate is still the same... juz let ns busy me till ord ba...

sleep is the onli enjoyment i can content myself wif... but can i control my dreams? if i can, i wan to see her every night in my dreams....