sigh

quite some time didnt blog le... actually wanted to blog when i was in camp but was preoccupied wif something...

anyway, branch life sucks.... nobody can understand how it feels like to be a clerk.... in this camp... sigh.... the morale is so low.... we are juz dragging our feet everyday and waiting for the day to end when it starts,. and to start again when it ends.... branch life really sucks... NO ONE will like it... we dun get appreciated when things are done well... we are juz clerks: the lowest form of life in SAF... oh damn.....

dunno why, really feel very low... maybe i suck in admin.. never seem to be able to complete my work.. tink i'm one of the most useless clerks there.. pick things up very slowly and cannot complete task assigned... oh damn... sigh

everything i do, i dun feel any motivation to do it anymore... juz feel like slacking my time away..

when i go for a run, why muz i run fast and finish as fast as i can?

when i handle work, why muz i put in effort and hand in a high standard result?

argh

no one's there to be happy for me when i do well...

and no one will be sad for me when i dun

had a rather bad and uneasy discussion on tomolo's plan, soccer or bball... and the selfish and stubborn me onli choose bball... spoil everyone's plan..

didnt really enjoy the soccer match which the Lions won...

feeling low and, sigh.....