tinking tots

its been so long...

2008-02-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

hi there...

phew....

uni life....

i'll survive....

cya...

2007-06-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

long time no see....

time past quickly... i'm into the final term of temping, ending on 3rd July... the team's audit is ending soon and it'll be back to a normal 6pm knock off timing... can't wait for that to happen..

well the internal audit team is made up of auditors from different countries, including an intern from the states! woah can't imagine having the opportunity to go overseas during an internship... how cool can it get....

well as i browse thru the freshmen guide sent by NUS recently, can't really over-anticipate life in the campus...

hmm of course i gotta talk abt my recent trip to mt chabang... it's a really tough experience man!!! phew glad to be back in one piece... the mountain was in it's most natural state, being relatively unknown and less climbed... wat makes it difficult was the rain... making all grounds wet and slippery... and the saf brooks footwear didnt help much... luckily it's quite new; the other guy wore an old saf new balance and had his sole completely came off after all the sliding thru the mud...

the ascent was difficult, i was most of the time on fours... grabbing on anything that i can trust my weight on and climb upwards... for a moment it seemed like never-ending... even though not a tall mountain, the ascent was relatively slower cos the paths are very slippery and there was slipping most of the time...

when i almost reached the submit, i tot... if coming up is this difficult, how to go down?!?! i turned back and looked at the unrecognisable path which i came up from, i juz can't picture me going down... looks like sliding down requires less imagination...

the submit was rather cramped... small space wif bushes and alot of ppl... dun even hav enf space to stand ard... still, enjoyed a brief moment of cool air and nice view...

but wat has to be done has to be done... can't avoid the desent even after lame talks like getting a chopper to fetch us down or even asking them to build an elevator...

the descent was alot faster... compared to climbing up, where i stop frequently to look ard for hand holds and good footings, going down is alot more straight forward....

oh well... i end up with mud and minor cuts all over... hand especially... grabbed stems wif thorns all too often in a bid to resist that free-fall feeling....

unfortunately the group was split up and return to the campsite had to halt to wait for the other group... they didnt come until night falls... tat's when i hav to thank my beloved brother... who in an effort to reduce spendings, gotten me a useless small torch which doesnt really shine even in total darknes...

wonder if it's a blessing in disguise... my trekking speed was rather fast... didnt see wat i was going to step on.... juz go on and go...

of course... keep falling at the same time...

chose to abandon planned climb to mt besar... onli 4 out of 10 of us proceed on wif the climb... they were the oldest and most experienced climbers... a man aged 60, another past 50, the onli lady in the group and one more guy...

well... nice to be back... hahaaa... not a bad experience but it's too challenging for me to be enjoyable...

next stop - batam trip!! 20th to 24th... looking forward...

2007-04-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

blog blog blog...

wat do i wan to blog abt?

sort of settled into working life now... as in, temping life... becoming a routine of working, taking public transport, teaching tuition, and playing soccer or bball or simply chilling out wif everyone...

everything's like a cycle and now i'm juz sitting in front of my front, probably ran out of interesting soccer news to read, contacts to chat wif, emails to check, etc...

working's so far so good.. everyone's like a teacher and u can learn alot... but uni path's still not any much clearer... i'll juz hav to take on an adventurous spirit and explore and discover...

hopefully, this journey will not only be smooth, enjoyable, fun, unforgettable but most importantly, fruitful...

2007-04-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

good day!

ermm, rather, night...

it've been some time since i last blogged... been working and all...

money is really hard to earn...

looking forward now, left wif 3 more months b4 gg into uni!!!...

tat'll be another change of lifestyle, change of everything...

still haven really decide how i wan to lead my uni life... do i wan to take up a cca? or choing academic and get good grades? of course i'll love to be able to do everything... but after being told tat uni is like having A levels every term, i am doubtful i'll enjoy much...

tat's y i need to take up something which interests me...

looks like physics is the right choice for me... hopefully it is...

alrite! i gg to work tomolo!!! yeah!!! (read from a body language book, if u express body language of certain emotions, u'll feel tat emotion too. For example, if u display body language of enthusiaism, u'll feel more excited and less bored and tired)

YAH!!! I LOVE WORKING!!!

2007-02-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... i'm gg to start work tomolo.... sian!!!!!

hahaa... on one hand, i'm earning some cash, so it's good... can eat, spend more guilt-freely...

but then... it's freaking far away... near expo... argh....

alrite, i'll juz work for 1 month, den see wat other options i hav...

will be doing lots of travelling.... still dunno where to hav my dinner, when i hav tuition scheduled in serangoon at 1930....

maybe i'll be another life altogether tat i'll be experiencing... after all, i've nv been thru such b4...

hopefully, it will turn out to be managable... dunno why, after slacking so much doing nothing, really felt the inertia to start doing work again...

argh.... working tomolo... sian....

2007-02-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

first hour of the last day of the lunar year... wat can i say here? wish everyone a happy chinese new year ahead..

seems like nothing's enough... keep buying stuff and spending money lately... muz go back to my thrifty days if i ever wan to survive wif the remaining of my 'coffin money'...

looking at the bright side, perhaps the hong bao money will help a bit...

when there's no work, i feel sian, bored, nothing to do all day long...

when there's work, feel sian, gotta wake up early, travel, and work...

well, y do i always so sian...

hmmm... maybe i juz hav to find more meaning in life...

instead of wasting my days away in the vicious cycle tat repeat constantly and never bring anything at all...

muz find happiness in simplicity, learnt in the show smiling pasta...

easier said than done

2007-02-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

first experience of wat is blood sweat money (xue han qian)... not exactly wat it meant, juz tat i sweated and bleed today while at work...

the bleeding was nothing, juz a small cut in my hand by a sharp corner of computer server.. wound was rather deep, stopped bleeding onli after some time...

but sweat, tat wasnt nothing... a bit tired actually.. although it's not the physically toughest i've tried...

quite amazed by the driving skills of those hugmonous trailers and trucks and lorries... the parking really need a great deal of expertise... everytime when a trailer park we will all turn to see, and everytime we'll wow!!!

hmmm... vdae coming.... heard this from 987 carrie chong, for those alone during this v dae, it could be alot worse.. juz tink of those hungry, starving, homeless...

yep... so, to all of u who will be alone wif me this vdae, dun despair... for me, well.... this the first time in 3 years i'm not spending v dae outfield in the jungles wearing green... tat's a cause for celebration...

so, which kind female gentle soul would like to join me in the celebration?

2007-02-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

well... why i hav the time to come and blog here? how i wish i hav to work tomolo, gotta sleep early, and after tomolo i'm another 50-56 dollars richer...

but no... come tomolo, i will wake up after 10, like the last couple of weeks, knowing i hav nothing to do at all for the rest of the day...

this job of doing nothing is quite bad.... it has the longest hours and lowest pay of all jobs... onli thing is u do wat u wan...

wat do i still wan to do? i wan to buy alot of stuff!!! new year coming, really feel like shopping... but hey, i got plenty of time to shop, but no money... sian man...

job hunting's rather sian too.. fill in personal particulars till i can remember my parents' age already... and interview's all the same...

so ya.... waiting and looking and waiting...

abt the match singapore vs thailand... wat a match it is... first time in my experience of watching soccer games, the team actually walked out of the match... watching from the far stand, i had no idea wat happened which leads to the penalty, onli started cheering when the ref points to the spot...

they shld look at how aust conceded the penalty against italy... although it is dubious, but gotta acknowlege that in the end, it's the best team that win...

and in this case, the lions certainly played better... deserved to win...

and farewell to kallang stadium...

2007-01-24T20:39:00.001+08:00

i noe find a job is hard... but not THAT hard!!! oh man.. now the thing i hav most is time and least is money... jobs jobs jobs!! where are u???

now tat i hav my PINK IC, wow, did i write it wrongly? PINK IC, ya correct.. so ya, the PINK IC, realised that the photo really sux.. how come i was so ugly when i'm in sec 3? sigh... now den grow handsome a bit late... dunno when can change photo... touchwood!! lost my IC once already.... dun wan to lose it another time.. hav to pay more...

anyway... the 'high' lanshop beside katong shopping centre is really 'high'... the rates are normal, coms are new, they sell drinks, and there's a big screen where they'll play soccer matches.. the ambience is really great... the music they play is superb, goes really well when u're playing games... are perhaps i'm losing too badly in my dota game tat i hav to listen to the music intead... keep dying...

so collecting IC is juz like tat... not really a thrilling experience...

now tat i've grown mature by a little bit more, begin to worry abt money matters... how will i survive in uni? oh man... better get a job soon...

anyone needs social escort? onli females aged 18-22, look like son ye-jin, need apply

2007-01-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

i noe find a job is hard... but not THAT hard!!! oh man.. now the thing i hav most is time and least is money... jobs jobs jobs!! where are u???

now tat i hav my PINK IC, wow, did i write it wrongly? PINK IC, ya correct.. so ya, the PICK IC, realised that the photo really sux.. how come i was so ugly when i'm in sec 3? sigh... now den grow handsome a bit late... dunno when can change photo... touchwood!! lost my IC once already.... dun wan to lose it another time.. hav to pay more...

anyway... the 'high' lanshop beside katong shopping centre is really 'high'... the rates are normal, coms are new, they sell drinks, and there's a big screen where they'll play soccer matches.. the ambience is really great... the music they play is superb, goes really well when u're playing games... are perhaps i'm losing too badly in my dota game tat i hav to listen to the music intead... keep dying...

so collecting IC is juz like tat... not really a thrilling experience...

now tat i've grown mature by a little bit more, begin to worry abt money matters... how will i survive in uni? oh man... better get a job soon...

anyone needs social escort? onli females aged 18-22, look like son ye-jin, need apply

2007-01-17T18:22:00.000+08:00

phew... came back from sec 3 rapport buildiing facilitating... wa... long time since i get in touch wif sch life... a classroom of 40 really brings back old memories... the job wasnt meant to be tiring, juz simple games and activities for the students...

but then, probably, i'm not the most enthusiastic faciitator around... hahaa... some of the kids hav a higher energy level than i hav... wif good fortune, i got a really good class and a really good co-facilitator... so, the experience is pretty good...

being in close touch wif a mixed sch for the first time, realised how much more mature the gals are compared to the guys... the class hav a big bunch of really active, cheery and spontateous gals, really cooperative and sensible... the guys are more concerned of how they look, and most end up being too punky or childish...

interesting scene :

co-facilitator : 'shouting at the kids for the first time when they are real messy'
after they quiet down, a student : y u so fiece? muz use soft approach mah...
co-facilitator : sometimes soft approach dun work, gotta use the hard way
student : den use a softer approach...

anyway, nice to earn money and hav fun wif the kids even though its a bit tiring... haven woke up earlier than 8 for a long long time... but the sch's facility is a bit run-down... onli found 3 water coolers throughout the entire sch where i've been to... its bad enf to hav toilets for different genders at alternating floors, but worse still, the toilet got no paper!!!

luckily, brought my own tissue...

it's onli a temp holding area, tink the students and staff can bear wif it for the moment...

after tat, went to mac near the area where the facilitators had a long chat... discovered a big difference between me and them - they all hav directions ; they noe wat they are doing, or wat they are gg into, wat they are interested in, or wat that will giv them wat they desire... which was when i realised, i had no part in this conversation... i've got no plans... got no direction... when ppl ask me wat i'm gg to study, and i answer them, i hardly do it wif tat level of excitement and enthusiasm as they did... i did it like i had no stake in my future... or rather, i tink i lack ambition... in every areas situations so far in life, i juz wan an easy way out... such high energy ppl whom i've met will surely come out and succeed in life, whereas i'll juz be looking out of the window and tinking, wat's there for me?

when being asked, wat are ur interests... i can hardly say convincingly the course tat i'm gg to study... i felt like i nv liked it in the first place.. my grades are becos i'm good at studying, not becos i'm good at the subjects... if doing well's wat tat makes me interested in them, i may well lose interest when i dun do well in U... i tink its juz like leading.... i've taken up various leadership roles throughtout these years... if u ask me, i tink i can lead, (i mean, i'm not the lousiest leader u've seen rite..).. but i dun like leading at all... i dun like to be such facilitators, or holding leadership appt, where everyone's juz waiting for u to say, to do... but why do i still lead? becos i noe wat it takes to be a good leader... and i will try to hav wat it takes for me to lead, when i'm leading... which masks the fact tat i'm actually a poor leader...

so, in the conversation where there's more than me who had nv met anyone b4, i'm juz sitting there, listening but not saying a word... tat is me...

2007-01-16T11:39:00.000+08:00

YawNz... really got nothing better to do, so came here to write a bit of nonsense...

everyone's working... alvin's got a job as relief teacher... good for him man, tink i probably wun get any offer... hmmm... looks set to join the working gang next week... wonder how it'll be like.... gotta do some shopping too... very little working attire i've got..

anyway the swelling caused by the dental op is gone, but my face still look a bit weird.. maybe too long nv see my face in shape le, so now not used to it... finally got it over and done wif, i'm not gg to go thru it again anymore.. hahaa... the feeling really sux, to be in the op concious... this time round the surgeon is an experienced female doc... and the tooth's not really compacted, so it's alot easier on me and her.. but still, it seems like she's using tremendous force on my jaw, at one point of time i felt my jaw's coming off... ouch... and heard her saying 'no strength already'... hahaa... guess my tooth really up one ok....

wat's different from the first op is tat, she gav me anesthesia again after the op's over, so tat i dun feel the pain... she say it onli wears off after 4 hours... tat was abt 12 in the noon...

wat happens was a bit of a scare for me... i cant feel the right side of my chin, lips and tongue for the rest of the day... the feeling wasnt tat horrible, but biting on ur tongue would seem like biting on any other food u had in ur month.. but of course, the fear tat it may be permanent dwelled on me... that fear kept me touching my chin for the rest of the day... and relief i got when late at night the nerves came alive again.. phew... the 4hr anesthesia lasted the whole day... or maybe the nerves were affected...

so, dunno tat's lucky or unlucky... at least i nv feel the pain the whole day... unlike the first op where i had to play need for speed to distract myself away from the pain...

anyway, for those who cant take blood, dun scroll down...tat aint rock or stone... it's my teeth!!

The right side

The left side

2007-01-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm... finished a jog wif kkk and alvin.. guess we're the onli ones not working now.. but this life, although its a bit on the boring side, doing absolutely nothing has got its pleasure as well.. i mean, the feeling of waking up late and sleeping 3 hours in the afternoon, its real nice... knowing i wun get to live tat kind of life when i get a job or when i'm studying, its better to enjoy it now... hahaa...

recently has to sport-ing and bridge-ing quite alot... something tat dun require money, excellent to keep both your body and brains working, b4 they get too rusty... my cousin and 3 of her frens were here from batam a few days ago, but guess its a rather disappointing visit... they didnt get to play at the escape theme park, which unfortunately opens onli in weekends and public and sch holidays... neither did they manage to visit the night safari, which they greatly anticipate, due to the rain.. which was when i found out tat an entry ticket to night safari costs u 20 bucks... and u gotta pay more for train rides or other stuff... dun really understand y so ex... and somemore if rain, everything will be cancelled.. i understand this part but shldnt the management do something abt it so tat in rainy days visitors still get to enjoy after paying so much...

anyway, done watching summer scent... son ye-jin is really beautiful...

waiting for 'alone in love', of course by son ye-jin...

2007-01-01T11:38:00.000+08:00

oh welcome to my first blog of the year... hahaa.. juz looking back at my bloggin experience, time really flies.. started bloggin at around in 2005, and here we are in 2007... alvin was sending me the mv of jojo's too little too late, and in the evening i heard this song in the 987 top 100 countdown... number 30-something... quite a nice song it is... and ya, many many nice songs in the countdown too...

so for me, how was the year 2006? hmmm... guess it's a year where i grow up and learn alot... particular in army... i guess wat i went thru wasnt tat bad for a clerk... went thru ex concorde, atec and oso involved in ndp, among others..for me, it wasnt a good experience to go thru, but its great to tink back abt it... how shit always nv fail to happen... how we got past all the difficulties... how bad we got screwed... and how handsomely we were rewarded when something gets done.. ermm, the last point didnt happen.. ya... hahaa...

guess i changed pretty much at this period... and i've came to understand that it's important for a planner to be a pessimist... always expect the worst... as my camp fren joshua quotes murphy's law, "anything that can go wrong will go wrong."

wat i look forward next to is to ord... three weeks from now... den get a job, earn money, buy everything tat i can buy wif the money, earn some more, den go uni...

wish everyone to hav a great year ahead!!! ermm, no.. many many great years ahead!!!

xmas over

2006-12-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

yep, xmas passed without any surprises this year... like any other day... other than a gift-exchange dinner in swensons at compass point with the regular members of my jc class, there nothing else to mark christmas's significance... had a good dinner though, and got an interesting gift in for the exchange.. me, being the cheapest, decided to juz buy chocolate, and poor fabian, who got it, took onli half back home, generously sharing the rest with us all... ya the gift i got is a mug with the picture of a cute little gal... digging nose... hahaa... from dong hai....

juz came back from ndc, went to remove the stitches and arrange for the next op... dunno why, the doc asked me to go for a blood test due to my thalassemia condition... wanna see my rbc level... say actually b4 first op should test, but since first op over le, has to test b4 2nd op... sian, cos a simple blood test needs 30 min for the result to come out... juz for him to comfirm that i'm ok for the op... yep, my rbc level 13.1... healthy.. hahaa...

the rains these days are a real spoiler... wanted to play bball but cant... but they're damn nice for sleeping... real comfortable...

alrite... tat's as boring as it can be.. so much so tat i'm playing sudoku online to pass time... but it's really hard... requires higher level tinking than i can manage...

looks like i'm set to go into a boring new year... yawn... time to sleep... yeah... dreams are much more exciting than reality

2006-12-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

tomolo is my last day in camp!!! ermm... i noe a bit off... while others are busy shouting and celebrating "ORD LOH!!!", i can onli console myself by this... Doesnt matter, tat DAY will COME.. yeah... as for now, will slack and enjoy first...

had a nice time yesterday.. the SHAG (Seng-Hou Afflilations Gang) was out in full force, all members gathering at Bedok town centre to buy stuff in preparation for a steamboat buffet at DW house... the 7 of us really had a good time chatting, eating, watching tv, and some, playing wif chopper.... quite a nice feeling to hav all of us gathering together, god knows how many times of this kind of gathering will there be left...

Here, muz say thanx to DW... he's like the hero yest... hosted the dinner... provided the transportation for the shopping from bedok centre... and spent 1 hr clearing up the mess tat we leave him wif (check out his blog)... So, DW, dun say u are unappreciated ok... muz really thanx u...

the rain's a spolier for the day... supposed to go bball wif DW and KL in the morning... but anyway, spent most of today checking downloads for my N73... A good phone, onli it's too laggy...

tomolo is the branch's big day - HR audit by SMP.. wish tat everything goes well... den i'll clear leave in peace....

2006-12-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... long time nv blog... but everything's still the same... while most ppl i noe are already NSmen, i'm still looking forward to seeing my pink IC once again...

completed need for speed carbon... the last boss race was WOW.... damn hard to win... it's 4 races consecutively, the first time i tried i onli got to the third race and couldnt get past it... the next time i tried, had to start the first 2 all over again.... this time used gallardo instead of skyline... alot better.... alvin was here and we take turns to play the last race... after 3 hours, finally managed to complete it... felt so good... hahaa... damn hard.... but the game is nice... would recommend it to anyone who isnt even fond of racing or cars of sorts....

left 2 games to play... ff 12 and pes 6... totally sux at pes 6... onli managed to play at beginner's level...

yea, had been looking for handphones for a long time... so much so tat my brother said i can work at a handphone shop already, being so well-versed in functions of those recent phones... but still, haven really come to a decision to which one to choose... for now, it's down to N73 and N80.... really fancy the wifi function of the N80, but everything else seem to lose out to N73... anybody who uses these phones, advice?

2006-11-24T09:11:00.000+08:00

wat a good day today... the weather's excellent... woke up bright and early, stayed in bed for a while, fell asleep, woke up again, refused to get up... this is good man...

stretched my hand over to grab the book i loaned from the library - weather... got this sudden infatuation wif earth sciences, gg to read this to satisfy my curiosity... but anyway, got this prob wif me... no matter how interested i am, i'll juz fall asleep from reading, whether is it on bus or in bed... hmmm... seems like no other places where i'll be reading...

or maybe it's the bed....

at this point of my time in army, juz wan to make the fullest use of them b4 i leave... juz went for a dental appointment days ago, did a cleanup and dentist wrote a referral letter to National Dental Centre for me to hav my wisdom teeth removed... not really a problem actually, juz tat it causes pain once or twice a month, and the bottom left always end up having food stuck in between... plan is, i'm gg to remove all four...

so it's gg to be a good december this year? hopefully... if my dental surgery + MCs can cover all my guard duties... and a bit of rearranging of my offs and leave, perhaps i juz need to be back in camp for the actual HR audit, and also to get my clearance done...

the last week of dec... where will i be going? got overseas leave applied for the whole week...

for now it's Final fantasy time.... XII... nice game wif wonderful graphics tat is too good to be true if u play FF VII for too long... a pity the female character doesnt have long, black hair...

and of course, praying that the value of N73 drops.... wish to get the phone.. looks cool and hav good functions... if not then i'm looking at W800i and W810i... much cheaper and definitely serves the purposes well..

Dec 13, the day when the plan's up and i go get a new phone... also the day when my library books' due... hmmm... will i be able to finish it?

2006-11-16T19:18:00.000+08:00

Ah HAH!! juz finished duty this morning.. tat marks the third duty in ten days... quite a cool record, which i keep telling to impress ppl... and the RPs ask me whether i signed on as guard comd...

hmmm.... i dun hav any signs of unhappiness after doing so many duties... tink i kee-siao already... too many duties made me go mad...

but anyway, dun care still got duty or not... go ahead and arrow... the more the merrier.. wll earn offs from last-minute arrows for duty...

not bad, made alot of new frens.. the RPs, the guard comds, the guards, the BOS, the DO...

the harder this journey gets, the happier i'll feel when i ORD LOH!!!!!

2006-11-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

i feel so sucky now... i need to complain...

i'm juz like one big target board... once he see me, throw arrow, HIT...

went to trim and cut and downsize, so that target board now is so damn small...

once he see me, aim through scope, fire, HIT...

sigh...

it've been shity ever since it started... and whenever it looked like it's gg to be less shity, it onli get worse....

i need to complain... i need to whine... i need to vent... i need to punch... i need to kick...

argh!!!!!

2006-10-29T23:42:00.001+08:00

Played bball this morning.. In less than half an hour after we started, 3 girls started playin ABC on our half of the court.. And soon, we were playin 3V3 wth them.. The game was full of laughter and jokes.. haha..

Unlike other girls, the 3 of them were really enthu bout the game.. The way they mark us is like, any tighter and they'll have to hug us.. Due to the fear of making too much body contact, we were rather reserve in the game.. But we still enjoyed the game and we all had a gd laugh..

We all agreed, that one of the girls actually looked like Hebe.. Lolz.. Wth her hair, dress sense, and her cute face, she really does resembles Hebe.. Woo!! Looks aside, she can play the game pretty well as well..

And the other girl reminds us of YanHan from ODAC.. We made a mental note to ask YanHan the nxt time we see her if she has a sister..

During our post-bball talk over brunch, we also wondered, wad kind of shampoo the girls used.. Maybe cos they were markin us real tight, but we could smell the shampoo on their hair.. And er... its kinda nice.. haha.. Well, that's how close they were to us when they defend..

The rain came in and we were forced to stop.. And so the session ends wth a hurried goodbye as we seek shelter.. But before we parted, we agreed to play again nxt weekend..Its tata for now.. Till the bball session nxt sun..

the above is taken from kl's blog... hmmm... wonder tifa plays bball?? hahaa.... had been playing ff7 this whole day, started new game and now in cloud's past (Kalm inn)..

2006-10-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

Played bball this morning.. In less than half an hour after we started, 3 girls started playin ABC on our half of the court.. And soon, we were playin 3V3 wth them.. The game was full of laughter and jokes.. haha..Unlike other girls, the 3 of them were really enthu bout the game.. The way they mark us is like, any tighter and they'll have to hug us.. Due to the fear of making too much body contact, we were rather reserve in the game.. But we still enjoyed the game and we all had a gd laugh..We all agreed, that one of the girls actually looked like Hebe.. Lolz.. Wth her hair, dress sense, and her cute face, she really does resembles Hebe.. Woo!! Looks aside, she can play the game pretty well as well..And the other girl reminds us of YanHan from ODAC.. We made a mental note to ask YanHan the nxt time we see her if she has a sister..During our post-bball talk over brunch, we also wondered, wad kind of shampoo the girls used.. Maybe cos they were markin us real tight, but we could smell the shampoo on their hair.. And er... its kinda nice.. haha.. Well, that's how close they were to us when they defend..The rain came in and we were forced to stop.. And so the session ends wth a hurried goodbye as we seek shelter.. But before we parted, we agreed to play again nxt weekend..Its tata for now.. Till the bball session nxt sun..

2006-10-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

emptiness

is wat that make you feel

like u're nothing at all

after doing all the things

and u end up wif nothing at all

so wat do u wan

wat do u yearn for

the things u are doing now

are u working for it

i dunno

wat do i wan

right now

i dun feel like doing anything

1 and a half years in office

made me feel like i've been working for the past 10 years

made me feel like it's time

to retire and doing nothing at all

when i even haven started

doing the things i wan

or the things tat can make me

who i wan to be

take a breath

go to sleep

when i wake up

u're still in my mind

but who are you

i really wonder

or are u nothing at all

juz something i created

out of nothingness

to walk wif me this path

till i feel like someone again

2006-10-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

out again with the SHG... this time went to watch world trade centre... it's a okie show... not too boring, not too interesting...

feeling quite bored.. especially now tat i'm clearing offs 2 days per week...

felt like doing something more meaningful during off days, instead of juz slacking it away... like maybe go work and earn a bit of money... but wan to juz do nothing at all and enjoy the time at home sleeping... i mean i deserve this since the offs tat i got are from weekends burned...

but work's a headache too... sigh... muz somehow find time to hand over stuff properly... i mean, those appointments aren't even handled properly to me in the first place... alot of stuff u do hav alot of autonomy... u do wat u tink is correct and u take the responsibility for watever tat u do... no standard SOP as of how to go about doing the stuff...

doing office administration sucks... i really dislike it....

sigh... why am i still so unsatisfied wif my life, now tat i'm at the stage where i'm clearing offs... hav been complaining abt my life for a long time... to tink abt it, i've nv felt satisfied abt life ever since sch ends... hopefully, when sch starts again, life goes back to normal... the normal good...

2006-10-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

so the last time i blogged was one month ago... i'm back!!!!

hmmm.... how did i spend my month? can't recall right away wat exactly happened, but noe i spent it in a very large manner.... quantitvely, tat is... now no money le... waiting for pay day to come again...

oh ya... no wonder... went for odac dinner at marina bay, had steamboat buffet there... quite cool, cos tat's the first time i ate at chong pang.... it's less noisy and smokey than the one nearer to the bus stop.... nice meeting up wif those odacians... although it's juz like another vs gathering... onli a few non victorians...

tot the next weekend the spending will be curbed cos was involved in a buddhist talks at expo doing volunteer work... under traffic control team... nothing really much, juz directing ppl from mrt station to the hall 2 where it was held... went to listen to one of the talks, about happiness in life... it's mainly about filial piety... not so much of teaching u how to be filial, but it really reminds you of wat really matters in life... not work, not career, not money.... ya... so next time dun work too hard...

but the fantastic money-saving plan was foiled when i smoked out briefly from expo to meet up wif the class ppl to hav a dim sum buffet at habourfront.... the attendance was quite high... maybe even breaking record since a long time ago... and the food is... wow.... nice.... eat until almost cannot walk, even hav to take a break 'unloading', before going to eat again... muz make it count mah..

argh... my frens siao one... tink too much money le... suggest wat sakura buffet... cannot already ar... not very good for wallet, and makes my weight loss effort useless.... sigh... too bad.. succumb to peer pressure... went to downtown east for tat big meal...

the food is nice la... but the buffet effect not there le..... 3 buffets in a month... really crazy.... looks like the chinese seventh month still haven past yet in tat there's still hungry ghosts in us still lurking around...

alrite.... enough food.... making me feeling hungry...

went for the last exercise (hopefully) in my NSF life... went on board RSS endurance, a LST, yesterday... it's a very big ship, u wouldn't feel it when it moves.. the main part of the exercise is the movement of troops from LST to Sudong island via boats and chooper... being an observer, i didnt participate in any of it... so stayed in the ship throughout... gets pretty boring, and the food - combat rations - sucks... urgh...

yea it's now October.... shiok shiok... can feel it now... now clearing 2 or 3 offs per week... and there's night cycling coming up for my class.. yea i like night cycling... but got no bike... who can lend me?

2006-09-02T12:47:00.000+08:00

yea juz went for ord shoot yest... it's CSS shoot at 100m range... kinda anyhow, cos we onli had a mag of 5 rds for combat zeroing and then it's the test... and for night shoot, it's test straight away.. the range which i shot the least number of rds... total of 35 rds hahaa...

at least it was fun... this range was different from the last few, cos i'm holding an appointment... who ask the conducting to be my dy, and supervising to be my s1? arrows were soon shot at me from a few directions...

although i kinda screw it up, on the ground everyone juz act according to circumstances...

and i got marksman... hahaa... nv expected it... everything's juz anyhow... ord shoot mah... dun care...

tough week ahead of me... gotta book in tomolo for duty and continue my week till saturday when i do duty again... adds up to a 7-day work week....

nvm, cos i'm prepared for this... will bring in my summer scent to watch tomolo...

although it's still quite far away, i'm actually begining to plan my leave and off forecast... and looking forward... things are finally coming to an end... one by one, all those who were wif me throughout, thick and thin, are all leaving... the officers included... and soon it'll be my turn.. would it be a glorious end to a bad patch of my life, and a fresh start to a new page??

2006-08-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

sian man... dun like to do work....

realised there's a positive feedback system juz right here in office...

when u a bit more work to do, u'll spend a bit more time in office...

more time in office means even more work thrown at you when there's onli u around..

and when u got shagged out by these workload, u do them at a much slower pace...

which means u end up spending even more time in office to finish them...

and poor u, onli got lots of distractions and other work thrown at you when u spend more time in branch...

u will not manage to complete assignments on time...

your superior becomes unhappy wif u...

tink u're slacking...

gives u more work...

headache argh....

anyway, took a rare one hour break juz now to watch 'hai de hai zi', the 7pm channel 8 show... jesseca liu is really beautiful.... hahaa... i can juz look at her and look at her and look at her and look at her...

2006-08-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

let me recap on my weekend.. like my sec sch english teacher said, if u nv write it down, it nv happened... well he was trying to convince us in writing journal... still tink it's a crap reason.. hahaa.. but anyway he's a nice teacher la..

hmmm.... went back to camp on fri to do some work, preparing for alert amber... was all alone in office, others clearing off... but worked very fast, no one to be nagged at, no one to be bothered wif... the work environment is ideal, very few phone calls, nice radio (933), and internet for me to surf when taking a break...

but den the flu hav to spoil the so good feeling of working i nv felt for so long... was sneezing all the way... but not bad, s1 came and bought me lunch... hahaa... wat a slack day... left office at 4 plus and reached home at 5 plus...

although the lads are playing soccer near my house, can onli decline their invitation to join.. slept straight away after reaching home... woke up at 10 plus but my phone's vibrating sound against the table... the tot in my mind was "who the hell calling me so early in the morning???" realised it's nightime, took my dinner and continued my 'recuperation'...

at least the next morning i feel much better... slacked at home, still sneezing away... went to meet up wif the guys in the evening at kovan... me and kkk wan to watch firewords, whereas the rest dun... so off we go, heading towards the esplanade... over there it was very crowded, but managed to squeeze to get a good place for the fireworks.. quite nice... if onli there's someone to watch it wif me... not kkk and other guys... hahaa.. but at least still hav him la... took some pics using his good-looking camara phone...

ya i wanna get a good solid camara phone when i ord...

so we went to meet up wif the rest after the 15mins fireworks.. dw driving, so he took us to parklane where we choing the arcade... well for me, the arcade's nv a place of entertainment.. juz played around... den there's this game of tapping three buttons, red, green and blue? can't really remember the colours.. but anyway lost totally flat to kkk la....

today played soccer in the morning, as usual... the guys there are really good, and they're improving at a faster rate than we are... so doubt we can ever beat them...

nvm... i'm not really crazy over soccer... juz wanna burn fats and get a good tan...

long time nv play bball...

hmmm... blogged for quite long le... but nvm... carry on.... muz write down, den it happen... best is to draw myself down too... so i exist.... if so den muz draw a bit more handsome... and no tummy oso hahaa...

can understand my brother's difficulty he's facing doing bio tutorials... he doesn't hav o'level bio background, and those qns i even hav a tough time answering... so, ya good luck bro...

but he's oso having difficulty doing maths qns!!! omg he's a double maths student... i'm going to reconsider about considering about whether to take bioengin or not...

really dun feel like doing all the stuff tat i dun feel like doing again... and all the maths and numbers.. dun wan to see them again... maybe i'll juz contend myself wif life sci....

and wat i going to do after U? sigh... everything's a qns mark... actually for me, very simple... juz a good 8-5 job wif earnings high enf to drive a bmw.... tat's all.... hahaa... den maybe stop working at the age of 40.... retire and slack.... good...

back to reality... ok....

argh i hav to book in tomolo!!! sian man.... argh!!!!!

2006-08-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

ndp's over!!! hahaa.... no more burned weekends... yea...

had a fun time enjoying myself as i took on the role of photographer, taking the $2k camara from s1 and roaming around to take pictures and videos during the post-parade party, which started wif a cake-cutting ceremony by CDF... i was there to film the whole process... ya the three stars on his sholders are indeed shiny... hahaa...

ya my guys had a tough time bringing the big cake up to the stage, knowing thier heads (and hair) would be on the chopping board should there be any mishaps... good thing is, everything went well as planned.. hahaa.. so no one need to cut botak...

wat surprised me was that one of my OC took the oportunity to propose to his girlfriend at the last part of the post-parade... in front of all the participants... tot that was quite special... hahaa...

watched click juz now... a very good movie i tink... nice... go check it out if u haven done so...

alert amber!!! here i come!!!

2006-08-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

it's another weekend... ndp coming soon... hopefully i can consume my off on thr and fri tat followed...

argh... still cannot look forward to ord, as there's still a couple of activities going on in the battalion workplan...

watched the lady in the water yest wif 4 other guys in the sh gang... the movie is quite allrite, although there's nothing really special about it.... still tink they shld get a more good looking gal to be the 'lady'...

b4 tat, we spend quite some time at the restaurant outside the cinema entrance... were complaining that the food was rather expensive... den came the topic of places we will bring our gf to dine in on special occasions... sigh... wat an irrelevant topic, 4 singles talking about it.... wonder when it will become relevant to us...

anyway, who haven watch click?? i wanna watch leh, heard it's very funny... no one to watch wif me, cos the sh gang most of them watched already... nv wait for me...

very sian very sian...very sian very sian...

summer scent

2006-08-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

ya had been watching this korean drama serial these few days.. of course main actress is son ye-jin.. hahaa...

there's love involved in the whole story, in every character... although not many characters in the show... the gal A already hav a fiancee (guy B) who treat her very good, and there's this gal C (guy B's sister) who likes guy D very much... guy D's love passed away few years ago and donated heart to gal A who hav heart prob, and when gal A and guy D met there's unbelievable chemistry between them....

hmmm.... sounds complicated? nvm... most importantly, gal A (son ye-jin) is very very very very pretty!!! hahaa....

going to renew the goal of cutting fat... originally had a work-out plan, tat is to go jogging once i'm on off... did tat until my weight reaches 64, den happily stop le... now 67... sian... hahaa.. gotta work-out again...

tomolo going back office... ahhh.... after quite a long break... hope everything's still fine...

after watching summer scent so far, it illustrated that a relationship, no matter how strong, u juz couldn't predict wat can happen in the future.. someone might juz appear there she's gone....

and tat even u noe she's someone u cannot fall in love wif (cos got fiancee), and u dun wan to fall in love wif, but u might juz somehow do tat and before u realise it there's no turning back...

and when this gal likes u so much so much, yet u dun hav any feelings for her, wat to do?

summer scent...

can't rest?

2006-07-28T01:03:00.000+08:00

why why why??? everytime i tot i'm finally gg to enjoy some peaceful slacking time, i onli end up disappointed... there's juz so much work to be done... perhaps i'm still in the 'men' mindset, tat i onli strive to do less work and onli succeed if i do none... sigh, being a commander tat i am, it's even harder to dodge arrows and shield swords.... the fact tat i'm clearing 1 or 2 offs a week doesn't mask the reality of tons of work waiting to be done so tat more work can come in... it's juz tat, wif offs, u have less time available to do the same amount of work, so u end up being more busy struggling to meet deadlines and stuff... oh did i say meet deadlines? now it's becoming a matter of whether i even finish them in the first place, not to mention finishing them on time...

alrite, tat's plenty of complains and whinning... sigh.... no matter wat i say, my fate is still the same... juz let ns busy me till ord ba...

sleep is the onli enjoyment i can content myself wif... but can i control my dreams? if i can, i wan to see her every night in my dreams....

life graph: ------------------------------------------------------

2006-07-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging regularly lately... nothing really much to blog about either.... if u read past posts, the entries hav been similar... talking pretty much on the same stuff over and over again... which goes to show wat kind of life i am leading now... very monotonous and kinda like a routine...

guess tat's because i myself is a very dull and monotonous person... onli ends up doing the routine and nothing out of the ordinary... nothing to do? stay at home, sleep, watch tv, play game... this is the kind of life i live, this is the kind of person i am...

not that there's nothing interesting out there, but right now i juz feel like doing nothing at home, or if there's a spare hour to spend, i'll rather sleep it away...

or maybe, i'll stay content living this kind of life....

offs tue to thr... will i spend it that way?

2006-07-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

ah.... why??? germany knocked argentina out.... ah.... sad....

they were playing so well... this world cup is kinda unpredictable...

england can lose to portugal... and argentina, one of the best performing team, is out..

now hav to count on italy... they really hav to knock tat germany out...

quote"u'll nv walk alone... but u'll work alone..."

2006-06-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

life's a drag.... and i'm dragging through... each day end as if they nv meant to start... now i'm juz waiting, waiting, waiting....

it has been this monotonous until this comment come up in my last blog entry.... kinda cheer me up and amuse me.... not bad.... at least some ppl read my blog.... and, after reading, post comments which i tink made tat person feel happy after posting.....

ya anyway, it's the world cup fever all over... and my favourite argentina team's performance hav been nothing short of breathtaking so far... their last match they won by 6-0.... it was quality and class all over....

but my dear dear italy team.... watched them draw wif usa... a very frustrating match which saw my favourite player, totti, subbed out early in the game....

of course, wif football matches on screen, comes football games on court.... had been playing morning soccer for both days of the weekend.... oh well, even though i like to watch soccer matches, when it comes to playing, i totally cannot make it.... onli go there for the sake of burning fat.... there's no entertainment value whatsoever to me... it's juz kicking ball...

wif the recent off streak, found myself time to play the game GTA san andreas... nice game i tink, even though i skip all the story part and go straight to the missions... but even if i bothered to understand the storyline, i couldnt catch anything that the characters were saying other than a load of vulgarities... but wif respect to gameplay, there's certainly alot of improvements and i tink it'll keep me occupied when i'm clearing my offs...

oso bought the korean drama serial 'summer scent' yesterday.... was on offer of 50%, so i bought it, although the main contributing factor in my buying is the lead actress in the show...

next week's starting soon.... will it be juz another week? hmmm... my understudy coming... can throw arrows le... hehee...

2006-06-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

promoted to 3SG... it's a long long overdue promotion, since i hav to serve the required length of service before eligible for promotion...

nothing really big, work still as ever-ending as ever... onli diff is tat i dun need to sign the book-in-book-out book... and tat nite's off return time is 2359... tat's all actually...

complained to my dad tat i felt very sian everytime i book in as i drove his car wif him as v-com... really so sian... as each day passes, the day to ord becomes nearer, and the more i can't wait to ord...

wat can i still write here? nothing much... it's always the same old thing...

back from batam

2006-06-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

phew.... wat a tiring return trip from batam... yep juz got back tonight... initially was scheduled for a 1640 ferry ride, but was late.. so hav to catch a 1725 one... there was quite a big crowd, those catching the ferry... and upon arrival, saw another ferry oso juz reached.. result in the arrival hall being packed wif ppl.. to the max... there wasn't even a queue before the passport-chopping counter... it's juz ppl...

well, anyway, it's a very pleasant and enjoyable trip... but, to tink back, nv really do anything other than slack, eat, sleep and shop... hahaa.. tat's fun enf, i guess.. to be totally free from stuff in camp... really shiok...

alrite... once a year though.. now gotta look forward to next year, like i did when i came back from batam last year...

duty

2006-05-27T09:26:00.000+08:00

another weekend duty.. another saturday wasted... ya tat's wat alot of ppl were saying... being in army is a waste of time... and this is juz one of the many ways how army wastes our precious time....

sigh... doing duty always sucks... not tat u HAVE to do it... cos there's actually nothing to do... so the idea is juz to book in and burn your weekend...

months ago, still had the initiative to make my burnt weekends worthwhile by reading up or doing somthing that's really constructive... but now, juz wan to slack my time away... would rather stare at blank space than to fill my sight wif words.... lost interest in a lot of stuff...

then there's this alert amber coming up in august... can't figure out why the battalion got so many alerts??? already got a one-month alert amber, one-month alert red and three-month alert red... felt so sian after hearing the news... oh my... work will never end...

call me recall clerk... or R&D clerk... or course clerk.... or assistant chief clerk... workload juz can't seem to stop increasing... kinda frustrating... it's the typical worker's complain i've been whinning about.. work increase = working hours increase... but pay nv increase... off nv increase...

and then... there's this centralising of manpower branch for the camp... resulting in the battalion retaining onli 2 clerks handling 3 clerks' work... sounds still ok... point is, i'm most probably one of the 2 being retained... and wif me wanting to clear in year end, tat means the the branch will be operating onli by one clerk? will they let me clear if tat happens????

got rejected by moe... so disappointed they didnt consider me for the overseas scholarship... gav me a local study award interview on the last available date... which means if i can't make it on tat day, i would be considered to hav withdrawn from the application... and it HAS to be on my grandma's birthday, when i'll be happily spending my time holidaying in batam... seems like i'm not of the highest priority of the candidates... although my results is not the most desirable ones.. but den... arh... sigh... nvm... looks like i dun hav the affinity wif a teaching career...

fine...

guess i'll reapply for bioengin next year... kanna rejected by it last year... sigh... why do i always being rejected???? guess most probably i'm destined for ntu ba... future blurred....

struggling to keep fit... but the more i exercise, the more i eat... till the point i overeat... will nv get to trim tat tummy of mine...

so bored.. tink i'll juz sleep my time away later.... so tat i'll hav enf energy for stuff tomolo.... alrite... looks like i've written lots of complain... can't help but going to sleep every night wif nothing happy in my head....

the lads are planning for europe trip june next year... hmmm... gotta save money le... quite interesting to go there on our own, explore on our own, spend our own money.... looking forward...

2006-05-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

time flies... haven been blogging for quite a while... ahh... now's its 18th may... one month after atec... but still counting down till next year...

at first, i tot tat stuff in office will be much less when we enter into this 'lau' period where there's not much training going on... however, i failed to realised that, along wif all the programmes in camp, gone are my fellow colleagues who are clearing or ording in the near future... less people, but the workload stays the same... looks like the worst for us has yet to come.. wonder whether we can really cope wif all the manpower losses, and, wif dy disrupting for studies, and a new S1 taking over, the future in branch is now a blur and dark picture....

but looking back, time really flies... i had really went through alot wif this branch, wif this unit... the endless works, the weekends burnt, all the happiness and unhapiness.... sigh... a good experience it may be, i wun wan to go through it again...

stayed up yesterday for the champions league final.. barca vs aresnal... well i struggled to wake up, and when i do ten plus minutes had past... but still i managed to catch all the goals... had to say i was hoping for a barca win... quite obviously barca were the better team, they play more attractive attacking football... although arsenal stole the lead at first, it never looked like the match will stop there... but when eto equalised, i looked at the time and wondered whether the match will play into extra time and penalties, cos if tat happens den i wun be able to sleep!!! haha... well barca hit back wif 2 well-deserved goals...

hmmm.... can't play com games cos the monitor's down... now using my brother's laptop... sian...

oh ya this photo of my idol, ideal dream gal... she looks so.... can't resist....

duty slut

2006-04-30T09:50:00.000+08:00

yea on such a good day wif a good weather for soccer, an i'm on duty... absoultely pitiful... okie, sounds abit exaggerated... anyway, damn sian la...

had a bad start to the day when i got the smart card for duty clerk locked out... tink nv do duty for really long time already.. the password changed but i dunno... so, tired for 3 times and still wrong = locked out...

nvm... there are alternatives.. can still do my duty... logged on to my own account to check email... got some interesting mails...

well after 6 days absent from camp got a bit of strange feeling when booking in...

yest was tys's birthday... we went to somewhere called grapevine, along upper serangoon rd.. the place's quite decent... went there to watch chelsea vs manutd.. oh shant talk abt the match.. not worth talking about...

one thing bad abt the place is that ppl inside the aircon place smoke, till it's rather smokey all around.. every breath u take in there's smoke... and makes the place foggy... when we finally got out, i observed tat ppl sitting outside dun smoke... well i tot it shld be the other way round.. maybe it's all the non smokers who shifted outside due to the smoke inside..

the food's not very filling, although i cant complain abt the qualtiy.. and, let me count... spent 8.5 bucks on dota yest!! wow tat's actually quite alot... but den, at least tat's abt 4 plus hr of playing... more than the 2 hr tat i'll spend if it's a movie...

the first session of dota wasnt very nice... of course la, kanna owned wat.. so sian lor... the second session was better..

after dota-ing and supper, it was 0130.. left wif no other alternatives, kl and i walked home... damn far... when i reached home it's 0200...

hmmm... seems like a long blog... duty duty on a weekend.. so sian... wat can i do?? muz go find other forms of entertainment...

maybe i'll juz find time to sleep.. my fav pastime..

S1's a father!

2006-04-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

hahaa... alrite... after my driving lesson yest, received a msg from S1 telling me the ward and bed number of his wife and his baby... hahaa... bet its really joyous for him.... earlier today, went to visit him and his family in kk hospital... can see he's tired, nv sleep since the birth of his baby daughter, but can see the hapiness of a father...

regarding the driving lesson, it was nothing short of disappointing... the car went dead for a couple of times... so sad... the fact that i last took driving lesson was more than 2 months ago, doesnt justify my poor handling of the car... to tink my test is on next thursday... sigh... if i doesnt show can drastic improvement in this short period of time, i'll be failing the test for sure...

will be waking up later for the match milan vs barca... hope it will be an exciting one... wif 2 big teams like these...

enjoying my offs from atec... i derserve it!... yea...

hope something can happen to my limbs and make me drive the car better for tomolo's lesson and onwards...

ATEC OVER!!!!!!!!

2006-04-22T13:09:00.000+08:00

yea finally no more outfield!!!! no more digging of shellscripts!!! no more sleeping in the cramped rover!!!! hahaa...

i guess it was pretty tough for our guys.... we suffered really heavy casualties... enough to rule ou the possibility of redcon 1 for our battalion...

but guess it can't be helped... i'm sure everyone did their best... we did our best too, and more often than not, it was the circumstances that limit us...

dun wanna go through it again... it was bad from start to end... come tuesday we will noe our result... but i guess it wun be too good....

bad week

2006-04-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

yea it had been a lousy week at work... damn sian... really dun like the working environment here... sigh... wat can i do???

felt really badly hit... missed both nites off on monday and tuesday, onli to be called back to camp halfway at nite yesterday.. its when u work hard and no one appreciate... and everyone's juz concerned abt themselves....

nevertheless, had a nice meal @ cartel for lunch yesterday... a treat from S1... very shiok!!!! hahaa....

i wish to ord... really tink NS had degraded my life... or is it juz another character building term of my life... argh... i wan it to be over soon....

done

2006-04-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

so ends a very uneventful weekend... nothing much... wanted to hip it up a bit by joining my brother to go kayak today morning... it's wif a group of other ppl, and they'll gg to kayak round ubin... which is very siong i tot... but, after failing to get any other ppl i noe to join, and oso woke up late, so both of us decided not to go.. hahaa..

went for a physometric test yest at MOE... quite a lot off ppl turned up, roughly got more than 100.. and majority are gals... okie, tats not the point... but the tests incorporate IQ tests, personality, values and health questionaire... the IQ ones are quite siong... didnt manage to finish all the questions, and due to the tight time limit, didnt really tink carefully for all the questions... it's the case of, see, do, next qns.. no time to look back...

after the tests, went to bugis to meet my brother... went to the muslim coffeeshop near the sultan mosque to hav dinner... the 'mutabak', or so i tink it's spelled, very nice... we share juz one and tat's enf... 5 bucks...

briefly shoped around after tat.. my brother bought a long sleeve shirt at the shop domanchi... i saw one which i like, but the price tag...

pillon on my bro's bike home next... quite shiok... hahaa... was a bit dangerous i tink... he was like travelling along the divider between two lanes... 2 lanes become 3 lanes...

okie... blogged quite a fair bit... so sian.... booking in by 7 tomolo... duty clerk.... argh.... low morale.. but monday duty better cos it's not a book out day, nor a nights off day...

atec coming!!!! HOO AH!!!!

block leave

2006-04-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

ya, on block leave today... yesterday, went to a nearby coffee shop to hav a meal together, cos it was my brother's birthday... didnt do much for the whole of today... not even into games after getting busted in the pursuit 3 times in need for speed most wanted.. den stoped playing le... watched a bit of the classic, which i finally got to after downloading it the second time... the first time it was an unreadable format..

this time round, i still had to do some research in the internet on how to put .srt files, which are subtitles, inot the video.. cos when u play the movie it's in korean language wifout subtitles... gotta download a programme to play it together wif the subtitles...

a soccer session followed, whereby me, kl, alvin and wk played in the wet ground of the street soccer and bball court.. when i got back home, choing finish the remaining part of the classic... really nice to watch it again...

and the soundtracks... they're really nice too... really like the whole of the movie.. hahaa...

"When the sun shines on the sea I think of you, When the dim moonlight is on the spring I think of you"

oh i feel like falling in love.... hahaa....

the meaning of fat

2006-04-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

i dun wanna noe.. muz keep exercising, cos there's no way in curbing my appetite... too greedy... gg for a jog... keep fit...

distant future

2006-03-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

looking forward, after this weekend, where i can enjoy after my duty on friday, we will be burning alot of weekends... cos tat's to prepare ourselves for the most important activity that a battalion will go through in its 2 year cycle.. tat is... atec...

atec... the battalion will undertake certain missions to capture certain objectives... this will take place in singapore, unlike other units who hav a chance to go overseas, like taiwan, india or australia, to fight atec..

being in a guards battalion gav me the chance to experience the flight of chooper... will be taking one again in atec.... tat's like the most interesting part of the whole exercise...

17 april to 20 april... may us score well in this... i wanna hav a jolly good time after tat...

but again.....

my driving test is on the 5th of may.. which means i muz take offs and choing my driving lessons after my atec... hope tat i can pass first time... tink i spent more money than usual for ppl trying to get a liscene...

and my unit will again be on alert standby on may... so sian... i'm the recall clerk... lotsa shit coming through i can see...

wat's getting me excited all over the place is the possibility tat i might be called up by moe for a scholarship interview.... although i'm almost certain tat i dun qualify for an overseas scholarship, which i so much desire (who dun?), i might well make it for the local one if the interview turns out to be good...

anyway, am here to blog cos of nights off... initially wanted to go for a jog, but it rained, so i slacked...

alrite....

the art of doing nothing

2006-03-26T19:12:00.000+08:00

slacked really alot today... hahaa... played soccer in the morning... had a nice workout, although the fats will always be there.. virtually spent the whole afternoon in youtube watching the art of seduction, a very funny korean show, of course by son ye-jin... hahaa... den watched most of all the classic MVs i can find in youtube... the more i watch, the more i feel like watching the classic again... the MVs, got 2 songs very nice...

home sweet home!

2006-03-25T12:45:00.000+08:00

yea, finally hav the chance to be at home and slack around... hahaa.. duty clerk yesterday, so onli booked out this morning, where dw drove me back and oso on the way, pick up kl... together we went for a game of bball... the 2 alvins, surnamely, gan and lim, joined us not far into the game... quite a good workout i had...

ya, if u scroll all the way down, u'll notice tat i've put up the classic "love story" trailer... if got time, take a look... my favourite son ye-jin film... hahaa... caleb!!! muz lend me the show!!! i wanna watch again!!!!

muz enjoy this weekend lor.... though enjoying oso means slacking and doing nothing.. so sian, i'm on duty the next friday too... sigh..

and, ya, muz enjoy the classic trailer....

best of frens

2006-03-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

went to play soccer in the morning... wk, kkk and kl went too... had quite a good time, even though i didnt manage to score any goals... i tot i defended well... and the team, as a whole defended and did well...

slack and went to a barber for haircut in the afternoon... took a nap as well.. den went to marine parade wif kl to meet tys there.. ate in the hawker and played pool... chatted quite a lot of stuff...

these are true frens, best of frens, tat i hav and meet up often... we can do anything together, chat abt anything under the sun... but yet, the fact tat we meet up often is because we are all single, no gals to go out wif...

oh why has love evaded us? is tat someone special so hard to find? or is it tat our expectations are too high? how often do i wish tat fate juz do wonders again and bring to me my love tat i so much miss in my life...

Murphy's love laws - Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant.
This constant is always zero.

end of holiday

2006-03-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

so ends the holiday as the course comes to a close.. this 5-day course had been a break from life in camp, where we take up books and start studying again... everything had been a breeze... how i wish i can carry on like this for the rest of my NSF, till jan when i ord... but reality is, i'll be back in the camp, sadly, by next week...

i've been figuring for the past year, why i seem to do through hell lot of shit as a nsf... by juz talking to my coursemates, if i had not enlist yet, i'll still tink tat being a clerk is a vocation tat u can slack around and hav plenty of time cos it's 8-5 and u stay out... at least for them, tat's the case...

so why did i fail my medical for air ops spec? if i passed tat, i would be manning in a control tower of an air base... or, why do i get B for maths, and not an A? if i did so, i wouldnt be posted to my camp as ACC... or, why the hell did the CPC clerk not like my name, NRIC, DOB or even my address, tat'll make him post me, out of so many others, to my camp??

i dun like to grumble and complain... but tat's all i can do...

The Murphy Philosophy
Smile . . . tomorrow will be worse.

stay out....

2006-03-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

yep, enjoying the stay-out life i'm having now.... on admin supvr course at school of manpower in khatib camp... had been looking forward to this course for a long long time... back then last year, i was yearning to go on tat course... cos tat's the route of advancement for me being a admin supvr, estab rank of 3SG...

initially, tot tat the course i will be gg through is about admin procedures, like handling documentation, leave, pay, etc etc... but now the module is on ops... today they were teaching about persrep, which is about personnel strength report... we were given the test of completing the persrep in 45 minutes, in tat air-con room... of course, having did exactly the same thing wif more severe time constrains, under the hot sun wif SBO on and tat stupid helmet, i completed it in 10 mins...

however, it wasnt wifout mistake... sigh... carelessness...

the course there's a couple of nsmen... den there's some who wear no.3 uinform, meaning they are stay-out clerks having a 8 to 5 working hours... then out of those who are in active units, most of their units are still in training phase, whereas mine is already in ops phase, where we are on alert, go lancer, fight atec, and etc etc..

conclusion? its not a problem of being a clerk... it's juz tat i'm suay...

juz played bball.. played very badly... and fell very tired... phew... tired...

SOH

2006-03-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

juz went to caleb's officer commissioning parade at SAFTI MI... supposedly, meeting the guys at bus stop next to swimming pool at 4 to take cab, but overslept, so ended up wif me taking cab from my house over to pick them up...

the fare was a whooping $19.30.. ouch...

ya, anyway, the parade went quite smoothly... saw wei yong, justin and co there... and a couple of other frens... felt really proud of caleb when he went up to receive the SOH from the minister... UP LA!!!!

then went to 'chomp chomp' for dinner... ordered quite a lot of food... adds up to around 10 plus bucks each for the four of us... den slack at cartel for the chelsea vs tottenham match...

briefly read through my blog... realised that i had been complaining and whinning abt army life.. i could well spend the time doing something more meaningful... sigh.. too bad i can't make full use of these 2 years... opps, whinning again...

now my aim is to keep fit again... at least, wif all the 'trainings' in camp, had returned to pre-brunei trip fitness... was so fat after returning from there back then in october..

heading towards fitness standard when i was in jc...

holiday mood...

2006-03-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

oops, i'm here again... hahaa.. got nites off, but gotta return later by 2300... sigh.. but better than nothing lah..

today is really an ideal day in camp... fall-in in PT attire for games... played bball, of course... had quite a good time, although the ball used was more bouncy than expected... after that, returned to office, realised that all the accounts are logged out... that onli means that work is stopped.. hahaa!!! no work!!!! went to bunk and do some static exercises, bathed, and went back to office in admin attire and sandals... shiok ah...

com still down, so the whole afternoon was spent doing nothing at all... hahaa... nv felt so good and slack in this camp b4... how i wish everyday the com juz cannot work...

tomolo will be the last day for the week, and next week... cos thursday there's cohesion, will be slacking too, and friday is off... and come next week, i'll be attending a admin supvr course... ahahahaaa... stay out....

wif concorde over, now at least i can smell a bit of ord.... left wif atec and ndp as major activities... endure!!!!

Murphy's law - If anything can go wrong, it will

2006-03-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

finally, the activation is over... so much things happened yesterday, so little time to tink abt it... watever tat had happened, juz gav me more reasons to hate life there... although it seems like everything had fall back to place, i'm so unsure with wat attitude it's best to hav working there... so much so for working hard, in the end there's nothing for me to feel good abt..

If anything can go wrong, it will...

exercise

2006-02-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

juz returned from a jog around the neighbourhood... took a dinner and worked out the distance i covered.. around 7.3 km... considering i took like 40 mins to complete the jog, wasn't an impressive feat... but felt good after that leisure jog...

played a couple rounds of dota today, the first at 0800 when i woke up... after which my brother joined me and we played together... den played wif alvin gan oso... my competence level of using chaos knight can now be considered acceptable... after rounds and rounds of using it...

oh no, this long weekend, like all others, is coming to an end... got the sian book-in feeling... we were discussing abt army life and study life, and alot of them prefer army life, cos no need worry abt formulas, abt processes, abt equations.... although it had been a great deal of load off not having to feel stressed in studies, i still tink tat it's alot better than army life... not tat i dun like army life... cos my army life sucks.... i miss sch life... so, maybe gg to be a teacher is the best choice for me, so tat i can relive, or rather, re associate wif sch life again...

wat can i do, to get rid of my belly??

photos

2006-02-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

oh, juz realised tat there's a upload photo icon here.. trying to upload some of the photos i hav.... see how's the effect... in case u wonder, the gal is son ye-jin.... but if other ppl ask, bluff them and say she's my gf okie.. the second pic was taken at mr kwek's house during cny visit... nice to visit and talk to teachers....

played bball juz now wif kl and dw... quite an alrite session... although didnt win as much as expected... oh, feel like playing bball again... but tomolo's soccer... aiya, juz go play la...

book out!!!

2006-02-25T09:01:00.000+08:00

phew!!! finally booked out yesterday nite around 8pm... was feeling so sick of life in camp, tat when we were abt to book out, dy called and wanted us to return and keep our field packs and stuff in office nicely, as we left it in a mess, we were upset and called our fren on duty to do it for us... felt so good after booking out.. went to dota at katong shopping centre den...

when i gradute and got a job, i sincerely hope tat i do not look forward to the end of my job everyday like i do over here in camp....

anyway, the dota session wasnt as nice, cos we lost both games.. the first one we were 3v4, totally overrun by opposition... but the second one, 4v4, we had more kills, but they pushed faster, so at the end we got killed by creeps instead.... for the first time i tried using chaos knight, and i'm gg to use it again and again from now...

wat's weekend got for me? looking forward to another round of bball, soccer and dota session... oh, seriously gotta step up my efforts to lose weight.. my brother complained i was very heavy when i was pillon on his bike... and my fitness... clocked 26 mins for 4.8km.... sad... tat was slower than when i was in VS... sigh sigh.. army arh.... why???

all alone

2006-02-23T19:25:00.000+08:00

it's nights out day... and i'm a duty clerk... tired of working, but work is still not ending... somebody talk to me?

if onli...

2006-02-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

i was graded pes c for ns. i underwent modified bmt in bmtc after enlistment on 21 jan 05, after which i was posted to 1 guards on 21 mar 05 as a assistant chief clerk. over there, most of the men had ord, those left were corporals who had to serve 2 months more than the men.. the 'lau' continued from mar all the way to dec 05. during that period of time, i had minally work to do in office, and most time was spent playing soccer and basketball with fellow clerks and officers. after dec, the mono intake came in and i finally had some stuff to occupy myself wif.. but it was all simple work all the way till aug 06 where we were involved in ndp.. i burned enough weekends for me the clear my accumulated leaves and offs the whole of dec and jan... i happily ord on 21 jan 07

if onli i was posted there.. sigh....

basketball, soccer, dota

2006-02-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

basically, the title sums up my weekend.. supposed to dinner wif classmates at marina bay, but sorry dm, i overslept.. anyway, gg to book in le...

after reading kl's blog, agree wif him tat its hard to find a gal u like, and she oso like u... but, u nv try, u'll nv know...

i wan to slack, slack, slack....

another book-in day....

2006-02-12T20:58:00.000+08:00

so sian, every week at this time... have the book-in feeling... which can really dampen my spirits and morale...

and to tink tat i'll be gg out-field this tuesday... ya, wat a way to spend v day... to tink abt it, last year's v day i was oso out in the field in tekong.... so no diff la... this time round, hav another chance to take the chinook again.... not a bad experience, but tat's the onli good point of gg outfield....

my whole branch was really busy last week... spending alot of time tracing maps and stuff like tat in preparation for the FTX II.... which was rather sian... booked out and reached home at 2300 on friday, yest booked in at 1000 and worked till 1700, and there was threats of confinement for today if work is not done....

as for today, bballed in the morning... shagged myself out... tired... and my shooting really cannot make it... muz train...

siya, so late le, cannot play dota le....

"people who seem to have had a new idea often have just stopped having an old idea"

fearless

2006-02-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

ya, watched fearless with tys and kl yest in bishan... like other ppl have said, it's a nice show, by jet li... but, like most shows tat concentrate the action on fighting, it does not hav a female main character in the show.... but nvm, the fighting is good enough, i dun regret spending the 9.50 bucks for it... and by the way, tink i haven pay tys yet leh... hahaa... dun tell him...

sigh.... every weekend this time i will hav the same mood... the book-in mood.. so sian....

happy chinese new year

2006-02-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

it's the 4th day of the lunar new year today... had quite a long break, enjoying the new year mood and visiting and eating new year goodies and getting hong baos and choinging movies at my grandma house and all... yesterday, we the jc classmates met up and visited our maths and bio teacher... it was rather enjoyable day, despite having to leave leong jie's house early for book in..

after all the hoo hoo and haa haa, still has to go back to work... poor clerk still has to book in on tuesday nite... sigh... wat kind of clerk i am...

i'm tinking, how can u control love? how can u control ur feelings? when u start to hav feelings for a person, can u stop it? can u juz stop tinking abt her?

is there true love? is there love at first sight?

when u stop loving anybody for sometime, do u suddenly feel like missing someone... a feeling, tat's better described as missing love itself.. a feeling tat longs for someone for u to be there for u... for someone whom u can sms abt anything, anytime, anywhere...

a feeling tat makes u wish tat someone's by ur side in ur arms when u wake up from bed, even though the one i'm hugging is no one other than my bloster...

"i'm in love.... it hurts so much... but i juz can to keep on hurting..." from a movie in the movie "lovers' concerto

looooooooong weekend!

2006-01-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

phew!!! the end of the week is finally here... felt certainly good, especially after this week's full troop exercise....

but the experience was rather good.. the 3-day exercise invloves a heli-insert, which allows me the opportunity of flying in a chinook... it was quite shiok... the downsplash of it was shiok as well.. hahaa... it's like having 2 super big fans over the whole field, and everything was swaying in the wind created it..

unlike the riflemen, who walked fully equiped for 15 click before engaging the enemy, i has transport covered all the way, by toner, rover and jeep... wasn't really physically demanding...

nevertheless, i do not look forward to the next full troop exercise, which is starts on 13th feb... although valentine's day doesn't have any meaning to me, i wouldn't want to spend it in the wild with 600 men...

it's wartime

2006-01-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

two lessons of driving tomolo, another lesson on monday and it'll be the test... a test tat i'll most likely wun be able to make it... however, will still go for it... maybe, after several tries, can pass.... juz hope i wun end up coming up wif a ten year series for the test... those ppl who pass after ten tries probably would...

after this 'war', it's another war..... i'll book in for the planning which ends near midnight.... den come tuesday, wednesday and thursday, i'll hav the battalion full troop exercise (FTX)... sound cool... not sure whether it involves chooper...

hav been living a tormented life for one year, one more year to go!!!!!!

ren sheng ben lai shi HAPPY
xin xin ku ku qu DANG BING
hai yao downgrade cheng PES C
bu ru zao dian ORD
kuai kuai zuo ge RESERVIST
rang hou HAPPY GO LUCKY
san nian hou jiu ROD
wo type dao wo hen SLEEPY
ne suo FUNNY bu FUNNY

phew... thanx kl and dw for ur help
good night

i'm no good for driving

2006-01-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

my driving lessons nowadays were all disasters.... sigh... can't be bothered to elaborate abt it.. now whether i'm taking the test on next mon is a question mark... a very big question mark indeed... even if i take the test, whether i pass or fail, is an even bigger question mark... a very very big question mark indeed...

but nvm lah.... juz to console myself, i tink of good points of a bad driver....

hmmm... maybe, since i can't drive, and a bike would be too dangerous, getting a bicycle is the only transport option i hav... den i will hav another way to keep fit by cycling.... and save money oso...

den, maybe.... since i'm a bad driver, next time, i can drink alot when we all go out... when u drink, dun drive wat... so i can drink (and puke) to my heart's content...

and maybe, when all my frens own a car, there's bound to hav some who live near me.. so when we go out, someone when drive me home... hahaa... good good...

dunno why, i dun seem to be consoled by all these at all....

son ye-jin

2006-01-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

watched another movie, lover's concerto, with son ye-jin acting as one of the main characters. oh she's juz so beautiful.... but the other female actress oso not bad... hahaa... seems like the guy in the show very lucky, got two beautiful gals falling in love wif him... but the sad part is, both of them died...

hmmm... so this's how it feels like to blog on my bed... hahaa... with my bro's laptop... lying on the bed, listening to jay chou's songs and waiting to feel sleepy... but still not so sleepy leh... maybe had a sleep too much this afternoon... but i'm supposed to feel tired... after all, i jogged like 5km or more this evening...

working hard to keep fit... doesn't appear to be succeeding though... muz really reduce diet... or else, muz save up money go liposuction le...

anybody got any slimming pills to offer???

mugging

2006-01-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

round this week, i'll be 'mugging' for my driving, especially the circuit, which i haven started yet... round next week, i'll be choinging for the test, on 23rd jan, which will decide whether it's an end to my driving episodes....

to caleb: hope u can be happy for me if i pass my driving.... wish u a beearlied happy birthday...

rainy season

2006-01-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

it've been raining... usually, in love stories and movies, there's always a day when it rains heavily, the guy and the gal somehow express their love for each other, by sharing a very small umbrella, or by being drenched in the rain with the other person.. or when they were running to shelter, the gal fell and sprained her ankle, and the guy would carry her on his back...

come next day, the gal would fall sick due to the rain.. the guy would visit the gal, making her feel happy and loved...

seems like, when is rains, humans seek shelter and look for companion...

hmmm.. if rain is a determinant in the occurrence of love, den maybe the higher the rainfall of a region, the more love occurrence that region will experience... which leads me to wonder, in this island of singapore, where the rainfall received is fairly high, is the occurrence of love as high?

meaningless new year...

2006-01-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

happy new year i wish, to everyone... but it's a rather meaningless new year to me.. it doesn''t spell the end of alot of bad things for me, neither does it mean anything good tat's gg to come... for those who ORD this nov or dec, u can look forward to ord at the end of the year... i'll hav to go through another christmas, and another new year....

for the past new years, i really hav a lot of things to look forward to... the start of sch term.. the new frens tat i'll gg to possibily make... the new stuff tat i'll learn... at this point of time for the last many many years, i'll be refreshed through the long holiday in dec, after enjoying and relaxing so much... but now, here i am, feeling tired and dried, from all the work i've been doing for the past few months...

of course, there were others who worked as hard, if not harder than me... maybe i juz couldn't stand working in an admin department... and, for one, i've nv worked through the night b4... even when studying, the latest was around 3am when mugging for exams, and tat was very rare... now, whenever i worked through the night, the next morning i would feel tat it's still the same day as last night; tat a day haven pass yet... a day wouldn't pass without a sleep at night...

so sian, i dun look forward to this new year... may it juz pass by quickly without notice... i wouldn't wan to remember it well... there'll be nothing worth storing in my memory....

OMG!!!

2005-12-28T05:05:00.000+08:00

WAT THE GOD DAM* F***ING HELL I'M STILL WORKING!!!!
!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&q@#$%^&@#$%^@#$%^!!!!!!!!!!!
SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!!!

tired and shagged...

2005-12-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

nowhere to complain, so i came here..

when can work be finished?
when can i go and take a bath at least?
when will my headache stop?
when can i consume my offs tat i rightfully earn?
when will alert red end?
when can i sleep b4 10 and wake up after 8?
when can i exercise and keep fit?
when can i finish reading discover magazine b4 the next issue come?
when can i watch a movie by son yejin again?
when can i ord?
when can i go to sleep tonite?

when can i be happy, like i had always been??

merry christmas and happy boxing day

2005-12-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

life continued soon after i booked out on an early friday evening... no rush, so i rejected a fren's idea of taking a cab, bearing in mind tat i'll be spending like yesterday's the pay day...

dun feel like gg out, it've been a tiring week in camp, so decided to stay at home to rest... spent most of the time in front of the tv, watched shows like guess guess guess, battle of network reality shows, premership highlights... it was like 2330 when i was feeling tired and going to sleep soon when i switched the channel to channel U, where a korean movie, the classic, or love story, just started... right from the start the female lead was on screen, and i was glued to the screen from start to end...

it turned out to be a very touching, romantic, sad, happy and interesting movie... the story line was about a couple brought together by fate, falling in love with each other at first sight (i guess), but with some twists of fate, they did not manage to be together although their love for each other was really deep... dunno why (maybe fate again), many years later, the gal's daughter and the guy's son share a same fate of falling in love wif each other at first sight... and this time they hav a 'happily ever after' ending, they seem to be continuing the love where their parents had left off with...

the great storyline was a big bonus for me watching the show from 2330 to 0230.. soon after i went to the internet to find out about the female lead... son ye jin.... someone i bet alot of guys (like me) can fall in love at first sight... oh i must be the perfect guy to be the lead actor for the show lor... wasted... hahaa...

went for a class outing on saturday (for more info, check out my classmates' blog)... but gotta comment tat i dun really appreciate the "nahia" show very much... maybe watching the classic made my expectations, or maybe my mood had been set to watching love stories onli..

but i still go on the enjoy king kong yesterday, which i watched together wif my two cousins, their frens and my uncle and his wife... 3 hour long... worth it... the action, the drama, the graphics, and way the story unfold... it's a great movie.... made the super unreal seem super real..

"i dun like to watch love story, cos it either make u (if u're not attached) believe in and wait for a perfect true love (which is so hard to find), or it (if u're attached) make u tink tat your love life is not good enough"
anonymous

leave

2005-12-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

got a piece of good news and a piece of bad news... good news - i'll be on leave all the way till the end of the year.... finally can enjoy after slogging so hard at work.... but bad news? i'll still be needed to work, and will hav to return to office everyday, the leave being burned and converted into off.... oh no.... there's a time to work, there's a time to rest... always hear this in sch from the teachers... for me now, it's there's not enf time to work, there's no time to rest....

quite sleepy... ate alot lately.... exercised but dun tink tat's enf to burn all that i've eaten.... how??? i'm fat.... help....

2005-12-18T21:11:00.001+08:00

this weekend was rather well-spent.. even though i didnt go for any driving lessons... in the odac gathering yest evening, we all ate to our heart's content at the marina bay steamboat feast.. exchanged presents as well, i bought a orange(or is it other kind of fruit) scented candle, and got a pair of small-enough-to-not-be-able-to-wear converse shoes... dun really noe how to make good use of them.. hahaa... oh ya me and kl oso went to shop at hang ten, and bought some t shirts and a pair of flip flops each at relatively low prices...

the soccer session early this morning served as a good workout for me, and a good source of entertainment for other perhaps... quite a long time since i last exercised.. due to the hectic work schedule i've got.. guess i've gained quite a few pounds...

somebody's on leave for the next two weeks, dun really noe it's a good thing or not... but nevertheless, guess we all will take full advantage of that... hopefully, the days that lead up to my alert red, and those that follow subsequently, will not be too much for me to handle... my gd fren kl's feeling rather down that he has to adapt to staying in and the life of a trainee... but indeed i guess we juz hav to 'ta han' and take everything as they comes... a clerk is seen by many as the most slack vocation, but although i beg to differ, wat we all agree is life b4 and after NS is all wat we've been missing and looking forward to....

and the point of having an emotional support, sometimes i tink even wif all these good frens around, at the end of the day there's no one's arms i can go to too...

but i believe, my time will come again... and so will yours if it haven come.. whoever who's reading this...

good work done!

2005-12-16T15:36:00.000+08:00

it had been an eventful week i've had... booked in early on sunday to touch up all the stuff for PATS inspection and worked till around 2am... on monday continued to do so, as well as to set up the conference room for the inspection... also concussed at around 2am...

on tue tat's the actual inspection where the auditors came and inspected.. at the end of the day, we got zero observations... woah!!..

wednesday there's the rehearsal for turn-ops parade. i was actually in the parade, but was pulled out as i needed to attend a briefing wif my dy at hq guards on thr.. so i was juz hanging around and doing nothing... but then, doing nothing means high tendency to get arrows.. and indeed i got when someone bought the issue of fire alarm ringing during the parade to S1.. his reply is "jun kok!!!" and i was appointed to station myself during the actual parade at the staircase ready to silence any alarm tat goes off.. but i continue to hang around wif my branch ppl doing nothing when another guy bought up the issue of finding someone to act as CO during the rehearsal to S1.. His reply? "Jun kok!!!!"... and the rest is history.. or rather, a defining moment for me... hahaa.... booked out later at nite, for a sleep on my own bed..

woke up 0630 on wed morning, set out to yishun wearing smart 4, to meet my dy... i was early, and he reached late... meaning, breakfast is on him... haha... bought mac... didnt really ask him to pay alot.. onli pay abit more than me... juz tat the taxi fare for the ride to hq guards was settled by him... to meeting in hq guards was chaired by DYCGO... and of course, was attended by a couple of LTC and MAJ, together wif other ranks of personnel... and of course, my rank is the lowest in that room.. the meeting wasn't really revelant to us, talking much about NS men... hence we contributed no input, yet got no output, from the meeting.. made our way back to camp after that, in the form of bus.. slept quite well during the journey.. in the evening, there was the turn-ops parade, graced by CGO as guest of honour... i guess it was quite well done... next on the schedule was to attend the celebration of my fren's ROM.. over there at the bungalow chalet i ate quite alot, again... this guy used to crap wif me and everybody in branch... now he've gotten himself married... haha.. happy for him...

den it's today, did nothing in branch other than to wait for booking out... quite a hectic week it've been... hopefully all the waves will subside soon and peace will prevail... hahaa, sound like it's juz after war... whatever the case, can look forward cos i've past another important milestone - PATS - as an ACC... now there's onli an alert red, atec, national day and yet another pats inspection stopping me from ORDing... and when tat day comes, i'll happily shout "ORD LOH!!!"

help....

2005-12-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

can't wait to go back bunk to hav a good rest.. damn tired... sneezing and coughing away... oh no.... help la...

wasted

2005-12-03T08:15:00.000+08:00

another saturday morning
fine sun
good weather
blue sky
white clouds
chipping birds
refreshing breeze
slack mood
wearing green...
YAWN!!!!

Home sweet home!!!

2005-12-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

hahaa.. finally got my long-awaited off... on tomolo, eh, no, today... ya... this week's kinda slack... not tat i dun hav anything to do, but juz feel there's more than enf time to finish everything.. hahaa... of course muz slack now that i hav the time, if not den where do i find the adrenline for me to chiong work during last min rush???

got a lesson in the afternoon... oh it's been more than a month since i last went for a driving lesson.. tink my first attempt to start the car will fail.. sigh... but hope i'll pick up where i left off fast.... not really often do i get the time for driving...

feels so good todae, started playing dota once i got home... played three games manz... hahaa.. nice... in the last game it was shiok as i top kills despite being the lowest level... hahaa... happily going around wif two hyperstone and an eaglehorn... it's as if i'm carrying a gpmg shooting ppl...

yesterday one of my camp mate, who had returned from overseas scholarship, 'inspired' me to really go all out for it too by showing me the photos that he took when he was there... wow tat's so fascinating, how i wish i really hav the chance to go through it too... he told me to dream my dream, and live my dream... well, i can dream my dream... but when it comes to living my dream..... hmmm....

wat's life abt?

2005-11-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

got news... selected to go for division exercise at plc for next two weeks.. sounds siong but i'll onli be in the ops room i guess... but den, was told tat most probably can't book out and wun hav a bunk there... dunno good or not... i still hav some stuff for pats to settle, which means i hav to rush after coming back from the exercise...

played dota again juz now wif branch ppl... quite nice, had fair share of wins and loses... when i use sniper, bought perservence, void stone, lothar edge and den 2 hyperstones... wow... got plenty of mana which i used at my pleasure to cast scattershot and assasinate... if one on one, my 2 hyperstone and lv 4 headshot packed quite a punch... and when all else fails, i windwalk away.. hahaa... wanna buy eaglehorn but game ends b4 i can do tat..

tinking abt the future, i ponders abt wat kind of life i actually wan to hav in, say, 10 years time..

having a comfortable job, finish work at 5, drive bmw back home or to meet up wif frens, hav a jog or trip to the gym to exercise, return home and hav dinner wif family, hav time indulge in the latest tv console game, sleep early and wake up fresh the next day...

and of course, it'll be better if someone special is already a big part of my live...

Nites off

2005-11-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

it's a rare nites off and i'm now home slacking away, onli to hav to book in a while later... so sian the journey from camp takes so freaking long...

changed the song u hear on this blog.. it's one of the soundtrack in ff7... haha, sorry i juz love the game.. my fren ask me to try ff10 but i dun tink i hav the time... stay-in clerk ok....

tomolo my brother coming back from australia... guess i'm gg airport den...

supposed to go home for nites off on tue too, back was delayed due to work... in the end it was 8 plus when we can book out, which is too late to go home.. we went tampines instead to hav bk for dinner and catch a movie... the exocism of emily rose... not a bad movie, though it wasn't as scary as i've thought... asked plenty of qns regarding it to my christian frens after tat.. hahaa... onli den i can fully understand the movie...

got 7 days of leave to clear... i hav to clear my leave my end of year or else it'll be burned.. i wonder whether i can apply this year on a date that is next year.. this way it's consumed this year and i dun hav to take it this year... but quite convinced tat my plan wun work and wun be approved, so dropped the idea...

looking forward to ord...

final fantasy advent children

2005-11-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

juz watched the movie earlier in the evening... in jap although there's chinese subtitles. doesnt matter though cos can't read much of the words... but anyway it's very nice and the fighting scenes are so captivating.. the graphics are so real, and, tifa looks really good!!

hahaa... ff7 hav been my fav game as i used to craze over it in the past.. hmmm.. can briefly remember tat time i was still a lower sec sch boy wearing shorts to sch.. hahaa.. i love the game, love the soundtracks from it, and of course the characters and the storyline... which makes me glued to the screen watching the movie even though i dunno wat the characters are talking abt... and hey, i even bought a walkthrough wif my brother tat costs 20 plus bucks at tat time, and i've completed the whole game and every side quest... super time wasting, but super nice... hahaa

and so, got to book in pretty soon le... need to prepare the conference room for tomolo's inspection... ya, tomolo's inspection, although there's another one on the 30th.. wonder how we will fare...

weekend hasnt been very much interesting, yest worked till late at nite and met kl at hp for a meal... todae supposedly play soccer but as we sat in dw's car we decided we didnt hav a place to play so we left... dota den wif my dy and his frens whom i met online.. pretty cool, owned the first game and the second was exciting cos it's quite evenly matched until some of us was disconnected from the server... wasted...

really feel like playing ff7 now... but it's a game so old, i wonder who has the disc to lend me???

'those who blog are lonely' - from one of my branch ppl

wasting time

2005-11-19T18:17:00.000+08:00

it's a beautiful saturday... which is too beautiful for my stay in camp for doing work.. juz givs me one more reason to feel sian..

i wan to go home soon... feel so tired and sleepy...

read something in discover: there're more universes than the number of atoms on earth... so our universe is less significant than an atom is to the earth...

nono.. YAWN!!!!

meaningless happiness

2005-11-13T15:04:00.000+08:00

a matter of hours b4 i'll be back in the office... played soccer this morning, quite shagged from it.. quite a long time a haven been exercising... do wish to burn more fats....

life seems really still... on a graph it'll be like a straight line, but it's one near the axis, somewhere of low magnitude...

i'm waiting.... there'll be time where the graph dips under the axis, but i believe time will come when the graph soars high up...

but as of now, the forecast of the graph will still be a straight line... unless something unexpected happens....

the new age clerk...

2005-11-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

into the 21st millenium, there had been a lot of changes. for one, the expectations and standards of a clerk in army has risen to unprecedented levels, where they are now known as: the new age clerk...

being a clerk is far away from photocopying stapling papers. the new age clerk in the 21st century need to show tremendous initiative and responsilibity, among other qualities, in order to contribute to the nation. we handle administrative work that are deemed as important as training itself, because without a good service support, even the best soldiers and commanders will not succeed. often, the side tat has the support edge will last and thus be victorious.

expected to hav the common knowledge of warfare like usage of weapons, clerks hav to be armed wif knowledge in the battlefield. although we contributed no brain juices in the planning of a mission, we act as the hands and feets of those involved. when soldiers are fighting wif their lives, we are tabulating charts and reports wif our lives. any mistake or delay in this could mean the difference between independence as a nation and hardship as a defeated country.

even in peace time we, as the new age clerks, cannot afford to let loose our guard. we handle all sorts of administrative work, ranging from leave, attendance, documentation to welfare, career management and writing reports of all sorts. we are operational ready, 247365. wif our tight 7-day workweek, we self sacrifice our personal time to our cause.

as much as the high expectations a new age clerk need to fulfil, there is also a high level of stress. inevitable human mistakes that we can make will lead to us having a 8-day, 9-day, or 10-day workweek. although we are fully committed to do our best at no extra charge per hour overtime, we do feel the stress that is impeding our performance from reaching a maximum. it does not show alot at work or play, but at least it has caused a new age clerk to write rubbish in his blog.

do not save

2005-11-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

earlier in the morning me and my fren were at the canteen when we are undecided whether we should succumb to the temptations and buy ourselves a bowl of laksa... With money issues in mind, i didnt actually wanted to eat, but we eventually did..

den i somehow came up wif a theory to console myself of having sinned... and here's how i explain to my fren why we shld eat:

the idea of happiness per dollar is the amount of happiness u feel per dollar after spending on something to make yourself feel happy. so it is this happiness per dollar tat determines the value of money.. the more happiness u can get by spending the same, the more happiness per dollar, the higher the value of money at tat point of time..

happiness per dollar generally decreases wif time... the same amount of money tat can buy u this amount of happiness now probably can't do the same 10 years down the road when there's higher expectations to fulfil.

so it's worthless to sacrifice the happiness to save the $2 buying laksa since this $2 probable wun be able to buy us back tat amount of happiness in the future.

so, spend...

play dota!!!

2005-11-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

OWNING!!!! hahaa... todae went to play LAN at katong after we were given the green light to go.. 4 of us vs a fren wif another 3 of his frens... it was quite evenly matched... All the centre lanetowers are down... but we managed to push down the centre tower at the entrance of their base... it was damn shiok manz.... i was using sniper, the only hero i noe how to use, and i converted it into somewat a magical hero... in my game i hav unlimited mana as i focused on buying intel items and after i got my lvl 3 ulti it became my primary form of attack.. shiok...

alrite, hav to stop being so happy now, cos tomolo morning got to book in again... oh ya, met caleb at the LAN shop oso.. hahaa... he looked good in the officer cadet dressing...

2005-11-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

feel like blogging but dunno wat to write... or rather dunno wat to write tat can express wat i feel... or rather, i dunno wat i'm feeling now... feeling rather sian...

which means.... it's time to fall asleep in the voice of cyndi...

burning till chao tah liao arh....

2005-11-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

pats inspection preparation.... it'e like a year-end exam which determine waat u've achieved throughout the whole of the year... spend more effort, do gila gila and u will get good grades which will of course please the officers tat matters... slack a bit and life in camp less comfortable than the already-not-comfortable state.. but unlucky me.. stayed overnight throughout working like a worker bee desperate for honey... damn sian manz... due to this i got weak and fell a bit sick... felt so terrible and was sneezing all the way in camp todae...

we were trying to come up wif a vision statement when we ran out of ideas and s1 asked us to draw wat we tink s1 bracnh is to us... and i drew a computer wif the screening saying 'out of service' and a photocopier wif a note next to it saying 'out of order'... supposed to come up wif some description and qualities of our branch, so i put a text bubble next to it saying 'walau all spoilt, i go other branch do work'... and wrote beside it tat we are resourceful and determined to find ways to overcome obstacles...

brother gg aust for training... wun be home for 3 weeks... hahaa now i can own the com le.. but this is not the right time as i'll be burning weekends and weekends, until chao tah still hav to burn... this is where i suggested 'soldiers awol, their ord date will be extended... when we burn weekends our ord dates should be forwarded rite???' sigh... if onli i'm a policy maker...

yawn!!!! i love to sleep... good nite...

burning and burning...

2005-10-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

so sian my weekends all like tat gone le... burning todae and tomolo due to the pats inspection... we are determined to get a good grade for this... a bit not used to this, juz resumed branch life not too long ago... the dys are gg to ord soon, and looking forward, i'll be working wif two more batches of dys b4 i ord myself... sigh... jan 07 sure looks far away... but still i've served 10 months plus le... 14 more months to go!!...

university life seems to be not go easy going for the undergraduate frens i've heard from... seems like it's not as true as wat i've tot it was gg to be like when i was in jc... tot jc shld be more tough?? hmmm.... but university life is the last lap we are running in the education system le.. counting back, already study for 14 years le... muz work hard manz...

nus dropped it's standing... wondering whether i really can make it through to apply for overseas scholarship??? this is a big dream - to study in uk... heard alot from my fren who spent 3 yrs there studying... it all sounds too good tat i wan to try it for myself... gotta work hard to achieve my dreams, although i'm clear of my own limits...

but for now, choing for the pats inspection!!!!!!

end of offs

2005-10-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

yep today is the last day of my offs; booking in early morning tomolo... of course, hav the usual sian-ness of gg back to camp.. long time nv go back le, tink there'll be 1cm-thickness of dust accumulating on my bed..

todae went for driving again.. i'm a real noob in this, after so many lessons, still cannot make it.. forced to change my test date to jan 23, which most probably i'll change again... hopefully can take the test in dec cos tat's when my PDL expires.. today, unlike the past, driving was quite alrite.... except for a few situations where i blur... once i even forgot to depress the clutch b4 changing gear!... hahaa... and a few times juz dashed out from a junction when i'm supposed to wait...

i kinda like it when it's fast... far too many times my instructor commands me to slow down... so sian, everything has to be done at a slow speed... it'll be a bit more thrilling to negotiate a corner wif high speed rite... hahaa... instructor say i'll be involved in accident sooner or later wif or without liscene..

slack slack...

2005-10-24T12:20:00.000+08:00

yoz, blogging at this time of this day of this week.. yeah, off till thr taste good!...

one of the first good news tat i've gotten after coming back is tat i've been promoted to CPL wef 011005... although it's a low rank still, at least i'm now halfway through to become a spec.. can still remember i was always very enthu and happy wif regards to promotion back den in VS where i was in NPCC.. i always get promoted faster than others and got more badges than others.. hahaa... guess tat was when my pride was build...

played some pool, threw some balls (bball lah) after coming back as i slowly resumed my way of life after the short break from singapore.. but i underwent a major change in thinking after coming back, after befriending two of the fellow soldiers there.. one of whom i already knew, but this trip enabled me to know more abt him as we chatted quite alot..

and i'm quite convinced tat an overseas scholarship would be most ideal for me... but i noe it's gonna be difficult cos i nv took any S papers.. sigh, regret not doing so.. anyway, juz gonna try my luck, and try my best too.. started dreaming abt studying in a renowned UK university, travelling around europe during holidays, leading my life in a new environment, new culture, getting Masters degree after 4 years of education.... all looks good, if i ever get the scholarship... it's gonna be dificult...

anyway, of course if i end up wif nothing den at least i hav a place in NUS... but not too sure which course is suitable for me..

welcome home!

2005-10-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

the plane finally touched down at CIA around 0715... tat's the end of the two weeks in brunei... oh well, being back home again feels great... hahaa...

browsed through all u guys' blog le... muz really wish KL, WK and alvin a very belated, but very happy bdae...

life's not really interesting at the camp in brunei.. there's hardly a day where my t shirt is dry from sweat.. it's so hot and humid, when i feel like slacking and taking a day-time nap in bunk, i'll juz lie on my bed and sweat buckets... yet in the ops room there's more than enf arrows going around... failed to finish reading the books tat i've brought over there... and fancy doing 5 duties in 12 days... quite a few times got into trouble wif the BOS as i was caught wearing admin attire in cookhouse for lunch (muz wear no.4), so forced to go back bunk change... not tat i mind changing; changing onli takes 5 mins.. but every trip to cookhouse means going downhill, and of course the return trip is a climb upwards... reminds me of bukit timah...

towards the end of the 14 days when training are ceasing and i got a bit more time, there's a chinese chess frenzy going around... unfortunately, i'm not the best chess player around.. in fact, i hardly beat anybody except those who nv played b4 and wans to giv it a try... sigh... the worst record is to lose to my CSM, whom i've nv beat b4, even after he was handicapped a 'car' and a 'horse', or a horse and an 'arti'...

the last day R&R wasn't fun at all.. most of the time we were brought to a shopping mall, perhaps some of the biggest over there, and instruction was to return after two hours.. nothing much to look around... everything can be bought in s'pore at around the same price.. the onli attractive stuff tat u can't find in abundance here is dvd and ps2 games... ya, pirated of course.. priced at $3 a disc, some even come in '3 in 1' movies in a dvd... and there's a very wide range of variety.. looks like the piracy business over there is flourishing... but there's something too bad abt this - we can't bring it over here... wasted... if not i'll surely fill my whole bag wif games and dvds.. oh juz imagine if i live there..... hahaa... can't buy, but no harm watching the movies being played in the shop, where we spent quite some time standing there and watching the myth, into the blue and goal at the same time....

nothing much appealing in brunei, except tat the clouds are much more beautiful over there.. u can see it in greater details...

'off' till book in on thr morning 0730.. hmmm... wonder will they consider it as block leave??

fly away...

2005-10-07T17:51:00.000+08:00

the day tat doesn't seem too soon a few months ago finally came... ya, gg for overseas 'training' tonite... tomolo 0230 the flight will take off... still, there's a couple of last minute preparation again.. haven even finish packing my bag... gg to hougang point later to buy some stuff to bring over, as well as to change some notes to their currency...

this will be my second time gg overseas by air... very SK for hor... hahaa.. nvm, i tink my chance to go overseas to some good place for holiday, not training, will come one day.. indeed, i'll really like to travel around, gg to places really interesting... right now, no idea where's interesting... yet.. hahaa....

it'll be cyndi's voice which will accompany me throughout the journey, which consist not onli a plane ride, and oso a ferry and two bus rides.. too bad for me, cos onli two clerks, including me, is going.. and my fellow clerk is taking the first flight, which means by now he shld be there already...

hmmm... dunno the toilet quality there good not bad... tat one very relevant to me leh.. hahaa..

hope this time round i wun forget to bring anything there... wasted i wan to watch the X files show tonite de leh... aiya... btw, Priscelia Chan pretty rite?? hmmm...

see ya 2 weeks later!

i'm home again..

2005-10-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

hahaa.. yest booked in, and todae booked out again.. off all the way fri when i report to CIA at nite.. but still, todae i shld hav booked out at 1200 instead of 7pm... all those gg lancer got half day off... but i got couple of things to do...

it's hard to get things done in this organisation... esp when i'm way below my estab... so sian, i really tink i shld be promoted lor... like tat i very lugi leh... do spec work but get men pay...

not gg to blog long, cos nothing to blog abt... hahaa... dunno wat it will be like in brunei... but tink sldn't be too bad ba... tink the only thing i look forward to wif regards to it is to read my discover, which i 'saved' up for this trip.. of course i'll hav lots of time to do tat over there, wif doing parade state and BRO my onli responsibilities... or so i hope...

may all be well and happy...

2005-10-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

remembered tat, when on course and the lecturer goes around asking ppl wat do they wan out of life, there's a variety of answers.. and wat i gave was happiness for me and those around me.. den i tink again.. if tat's wat i wan in life, den everything tat i do in life muz be cos of it, rite?? but tat hasn't been really true...

maybe we all are selfish ppl... selfishness is a nature of human being (quoted by my beloved gp tutor)... wat's concious in our mind is to do good, yet we still commit evil deeds, cos subconciously, wat we tink are bad tots...

dunno why i toking crap.. okie, got to book in le... haha! so long nv go back camp le...

ps: the 'we' refers to human beings in general... not toking abt ppl i noe or in my circle..

here again..

2005-10-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

realised tat i blog quite often.. maybe these are times when i keep booking out, hav nothing really much to do at home other than playing dynasty warriors and sleeping.. maybe tomolo i'll be here again, cos not booking in till late at nite.. on course.. haha... ya todae saw couple of familiar faces where i took the test... the test was ok la... can't really comment much on it... they giv us half an hour to do 20 mcq qns... which i finished in less than 5 mins... but i dun wan to be the first one to walk out of the room, so waited for a couple of minutes more when someone handed in the paper and left, and i followed... and, ya, spent another half of the day at home... choing dynasty warriors again..

tomolo need to go back camp to pack my bag... gotta get ready lots of stuff... plenty of which i dun tink i really need...

fallen in love wif cyndi's songs... love her music and voice... nice...

nono signing off...

2005-10-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

the end of one thing signifies the beginning of the other... and this end weekend will of course signify the beginning of a new week... after courses of three days, it's time to go back to camp... to tink tat i always prefer sch life to army life, now i gg to hav a taste of the old sch life again... yep, gg to read and understand and memorise the dreadful GOM (general directive of manpower)!! no la, not all of them... selectively... will do so after i book in later at nite... in preparation for the test tomolo... got of feeling of last minute preparation again... ha... all so familiar in sch life...

got quite a few things to settle... first will be the packing... now still dunno wat exactly to pack, but tink tomolo will i come back from test will start to...

needless to say, looking forward to the course on tue... another day skipped from camp.. good..

bball today morning was not bad... played 4 matches of 2v2... alvin was quite a bother... hard to mark... but not bad la, at least i improve...

dynasty warriors rules!

creativity and innovation course

2005-09-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

yep todae went for tat course in bouna vista... met amy on the train.. chatted quite a bit to catch up... and again further convince me tat nothing is better than to ord right now...

the course - creativity and innovation - suits me, totally no creativity or innovation, best.. enjoyed the course although almost fell asleep at some point where the topic's dry... but gotta admit the lecturer did a great job... he's very humourous... cracked jokes and bring laughter to the class alot.. so i guess it's not quite a bad experience, got myself entertained, at least, and learnt some things... not much things, actually...

feels tired... and again i'm still tinkning, still stuck, dunno exactly which course to take, which path to choose... oh how indecisive i am...

good night